Did you?
Hear that?

THAT noise…in between all of the gnashing of teeth, pay of bills, learning of lines, eating of food…that noise.

Did you hear that?

THAT one thing…the sound that came after the nostril breathing and the giving up and the giving in and the praying and the meditating. . .

there it is.

right THERE!

did you HEAR it?

DID YOU?

that was the sound of my re-fi guy saying it’s a go. we’re going to close at the end of March…

window closed.

door opened.

Well I got my final answer on the windows yesterday.
No financing available to me.
I am solid, one hundred percent sure that it’s because with all of the attempts to refi the house, my credit has been pulled too many times and is reflecting that.

Alas…I’m relieved. I had a very solid solid thought pop into my head after I got the call that said, “call Public Supply” and they were on my list to call but I canceled them after the Champion guys came. So…I’m just going to call. Get an estimate. Maybe only do one or two windows…

Rehearsal was good last night. We worked act one pretty hard, so I feel better. The girl working with me looks at my forehead though. Never in my eyes. wierd. Sigh. it’s just wierd. But I feel good about our scenes, I think once we get off book (next wednesday for act one) we’ll be cooking!

I did about 10 minutes of meditation/prayer time this morning…It’s hard. I will take all of the tips for the meditation I can get, thank you very much! But, no soda for me, and man I wanted a Sprite Zero before rehearsal last night. 39 more days…

ok, hopefully my day will be full of working…yesterday was NOT full of the working however I gained a new client!

Tonight, I’m going to a fundraiser starring all my funny ha ha friends. Should be a fun time.

Oh happy humping day to you! Remember…closed windows…mean something else is opening around the corner that you cannot see. it’s all good…

Enjoyed a Fat Tuesday yesterday with crawfish, corn, taters and spicy sausage! MMMM MMM good! today is the first day of Lent. I’m giving up soda and committing to at least 15 minutes a day of meditations/prayer/solace. As well as bulimia, marriage and world peace. I’m giving that up as well.

Speaking of marriage, man I had a crazy dream last night. I dreamed I got back together with my ex-husband. seriously. it was all very detailed and crazed. we got re-married.

cue vomit.

but it felt good…in the dream…it felt right and fine. and I think that stems from conversations with Joe and MGirl last night about letting go of some stuff, and how when one really truthfully does that, how good it feels.

Giving up, letting go…tis the season.
have you given anything up, or let go of anything lately?

so.
i feel the need to confess. Fat Tuesday is upon us, and yes I will be partaking in some crawfish and cold beer to celebrate…however I started early with my Fat Weekend. Everything I ate this weekend, for every single meal, was either fast food or restaraunt. And it was neither healthy or low fat. At All.

It’s been awhile since I’ve binged that hard and no holds barred…but you know what? It felt good and my body is now craving healthy food. I’ve done my grocery stop and bought provisions for the week. I’ve roasted a big pan of veggies and am doing an acorn squash too. Also making a healthy meatloaf for the week. I’ve got salad made up and ready to grab…should be a good week. I haven’t called the Y to check on a membership yet, but that’s on my list to do. Mostly I’ve been lazy and watching season one of Battlestar Galactica. It’s my latest addiction.

SO…how has your Monday been? What’s your week look like? I have something every single weeknight and then starting next week I’ll be at the theatre every night until the show opens! Here we go! I don’t feel to badly about being lazy today. I’m not going to have another one until mid-April!

also…there was no closing on the house today. I feel like that is not going to happen. And you know what? ok. fine. There is another plan that includes this house and my finances and I’m ready to follow that…once I know what the hell it is. Also still no word on the financing for the windows. So…whatever! That’s my attitude!

what.
ever.

I got my refund check today. It’s now time to begin my list. Get the car fixed, pay off some debt to my dentist and bonusmom, pay off my lowes account. Wahoo!!! We’ll see how the rest of this shakes out and maybe I’ll get a fence…or look into a new/used computer.

maybe.

Another Monday, another day. I woke up early this morning and fed and watered the livestock then took myself back to the bed. slept till dang near 11! Nice. felt nice. Kind of have the stuffy head but other than that, it’s a great day! I ran to the grocery for essentials. was down to my last square of tp, which motivated the no coffee this morning, which is why I still don’t feel awake. I’m an addict. But I got lots of fresh veggies and some stuff to make Brinner a few times (breakfast for dinner) and think I’ll do a meatloaf today to munch on throughout the week.

I have rehearsal tonight, and comedy after if I make it. It’s a good day.

yesterday, however, was a MAGNIFICIENT day. M’lynn and I went to a new church in downtown OKC. it’s across from the bombing site. the church was actually used as the morgue during that time. The service was a little wonky, not how they usually run things, their computer system went kaput so they were winging it. It turned out to be one of those services that takes on a life of its own. And frankly, I loved it. I want to go back there next week for another test drive. After church we went to the Iguana Lounge for brunch. SO GOOD. we had a bloody mary, and a big plate of mexican breakfast slurry with eggs and chiroizo and onions and chips all mucked up into one dish. muy bueno. then we went next door to Sara Sara Cupcakes for dessert. Red Velvet Cupcake and a glass of milk. The glasses are kept in the freezer and you take it out and put it up to the shiny stainless steel milk dispenser what says, white, chocolate or strawberry, and you pull the lever….OH it was just almost too much. sigh. SO GOOD.

After I took her home I headed back downtown to the theatre for our powwow about the education show. We read thru act one of both A Shayna Maidel and All My Sons. Both are great shows. ASM is probably easier to cast and to produce. AMS is three acts (yikes. high school kids) and has a LOT of men. (we have not a lot of men.) But we’ll see. I’m going to finish up reading those today and cast my vote. I’m pretty good with either one, just want one that works with our season and can be produced w/o much strife.

Home from that 2 hours meeting to my house where I met Numskullery. He brought me seasons 1 and 2 of Battlestar Galactica. mmmmmmmmmmmm sweet sweet sweet. We hung out and ate some pizza and watched some Academy Awards. He left early to go get the wife from yoga training and I moved to the couch for some good watching.

I LOVE KATE WINSLET!!!!
she is the body that I want to be. everything was fabulous. I didn’t have one dress that I loved, but I did love the past winners doing the presenting of the acting awards. the show in itself was just great, I felt! Wahoo!!!

Happy Monday everybody. Enjoy it all…

Well, the work week is winding down. I’m busy today and that’s good. yesterday was semi, thursday SUCKED!!! I’m getting time to work on lines, however, the boredom is bad for everyones mental health! Glad to finish on a busy note!

I went to see a CHARMING show last night at Carpenter Square…Almost,Maine. Oh. Oh oh oh oh oh the script is lovely. The cast, save one, was strong and made brilliant choices that were just…original and bright and delightful, my friend Kris was just fantastic. It was another great night for 18 bucks. I didn’t go out afterwards, came home and crashed. I did sit by two of my faves that work in the theatre and we all kind of stumbled upon a show to fill our slot…if it passes committee. It’s written by the same author of the show I’m doing now…A Shayna Maydel is the title. I’m hoping. . . that slot for next season is taunting us…

anywoo, got to see B yesterday. Good news is that ScottyRingo is back to feeling his oats again. Hoo Haa! Hope to get facetime tonight with her again..she’s starting a Mary Kay business. LOVE IT. I’ve worn it since jr high/high school. I can’t wait for her to practice her schtick on my face! Anyone need anything? I’ll pass on the order and get it to you. I’m super excited to see all the new face stuff…repair stuff. Yeah yeah, we all know I don’t wash my face from the day. I sleep in the makeup. I do. always have. but I’m starting to see some unsightly markings that hopefully can be repaired without major attention from the TLC network.

just a few more things.

How about that lady with the chimp what ate her bff’s face??? Fruit nut. total fruit nut.

Going to the warbar tonight to have some facetime with Gert. My heart is in lockdown in dealing with her impending move. I’m super psyched for her adventure. She’s never done the pack the car and drive away thing. Joe went to Cali. I joined the circus. it’s her turn. I’m sad that I don’t get to help move because she’s leaving the day my show opens. so it’ll be some weekends before I can get down to have a cookie lookie. Nevermind, she’s going to be brilliant. Always part Catwoman, lands on her feet. sigh.

I officially quit Weight Watchers yesterday. quit paying anyway. I’m still following program in my life. I want to use that allotted money to re-join the YMCA. if I can just figure out a way to deal with that joining fee…gah. fees suck.

Still haven’t heard yay or nay for the refinancing OR for the financing on the windows. Communication is NOT key for these two subjects apparently. I allegedly have a 3pm appointment to close on the re-fi. my money (the money I dont have) is on that getting cancelled. Oh well. Whatever happens, happens.

I got some more blonde put into my hair this week during slow downtime. THANKS MGIRL!!! I feel BETTER and back to normal. whew!

I got an email from my neighborlady yesterday saying that she was SO in on paying for her half of the fence and gate. now I just have to get ahold of the guy what owns the other side and pray that he says YES as well!!! crossing fingers folks!

Next week is Fat Tuesday, Ash Wednesday and MLynn’s birthday. She and I are going to celebrate by going to church tomorrow then to brunch and maybe a cupcake before I have my meeting. We were lamenting purple pool weather this week…needing it to get here soon! We’ve been talking about Lent and observing and what we’ll be doing to observe…are you observing? Are you giving up anything? (my standard line is I’ve given up bulimia, married men and world peace for Lent) a ha. a ha ha ha ha ha. funny girl.

That may be it from me. I’m off to refill the coffee…I’m out of Kizz’s gift, but I did get some non–crappy–coffee with the last trip to Wal-Mark.

OH HAPPY FRIDAY (for me) SATURDAY(for the Normals) Hope it’s grand!

soooo…my give a shit is running on empty this morning. seriously.

I woke up around 3:30 and I don’t think I ever really went back to good sleep…woke up with cats laying all over me keeping warm.

Yesterday when I left work I had one appointment on my book today. So, I’m crossing fingers for more to appear. I am going to weigh in.didn’t go last week, so there’s that to sort of look forward to. bleagh.

Meh.

that’s me today.

This is NOT anything like what you get at the Edison Cafe when you order a side of corned beef hash to go with your french toast. I thought…ehhhh maybe? when I bought it. Crap shoot at best…

I knew however, that this was not going to be good when I opened the can and was hit with a smell that wasn’t nearly as good as the catfood I’d just fed the livestock. Ok. maybe it always smells like that before it’s cooked. I put it in the pan and start to heat it up and OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD somebody take the dead body smell out of my house!!! Do I stop? nope. just put the lid on the skillet. At this point I took a little gander at the facts on the can and got out my handy dandy little weight watchers point slider…when I had to take it out and turn it over to get to the correct amount of calories…(hell NO I didn’t throw it out then! if the dead body cat food smell didnt do it, you think I’m scared of calories???) well. Turns out corned beef hash is not so w.w. friendly. I’m thinking…if I take the lid off and it’s JUST LIKE WE GET AT THE EDISON CAFE….I don’t care.

that.
did.
not.
happen.

It’s all now in my trash which is out in the dumpster.

this public service announcement brought to you by Lean Cuisine Pizza. 7 points.

Sometimes…some days we need a little extra help.

I’m with Kizz though, not sure the names are up to par. Oh Well…Not every alter ego can have the name Zelda!

Go. Go right this minute. Make your Wednesday something a little better…

Had a semi busy day today. Everybody showed up but one, so whatever. The weather here was gorgeous. 70’s and perfect. I feel good about the windows today though I didn’t hear anything about the financing yet. I heard nothing from the refi guy either. I’m totally blessing it and letting it go for awhile…

oh, and while watching The Biggest Loser…i had this for supper….yeah. yeah I did.

Bonusmom gifted me with a waffle iron. and I had fresh blueberries so Voila. Supper. and Biggest Loser. just like Coors Light and an ep of Intervention.

Night yall