Just got home from laughing my ass off. Seriously. I am 1.8 pounds lighter today and I’m pretty sure that the laughing I did tonight shaved off another pound or so…

I know that my plans included comedy on the weekend. However, the redhead was up tonight at the club, and as things turned out his boss was in the audience along with our lovely first lady. I really wanted to bring people and fill up a table and laugh out loud and support the man. He is an amazing man, after all. yep yep.

Turns out he didn’t need any of my help. He was brilliant all on his own self. Fun-Knee. He threw in some new stuff tonight that was tight. His stuff that I’d heard before was even tighter than a virgin at a prison rodeo. good good good. timing. all of it. good. C2 came (i know I need better blog names for them but the muse has yet to strike. gah. I apparently have lost the witty) and they laughed and had a good time as well as Nan and M’Lynn. Our beloved gov was wearing some nice starch.

This may be a detail that most people would leave out, but for those who know me know that starch just…IS. Nice starched yellow shirt. jeans. boots. he was good and he was lookin’…good lookin! He and his wife seemed to have a grand time, and once the redhead introduced them the headlining comic had a field day with them. bwa ha ha ha. In the presence of blue bliss. M’Lynn said,”that man needs to ditch those suits and WEAR JEANS ALL THE TIME!”

I concur.

So tomorrow is Friday. Our dear Kizz is off to deal with life and death and singing. Thoughts and strength to you my friend. The weekend rolls around and that brings for me, theatre tomorrow and who knows on Saturday. I may just have to go again.

it was that. good.

but I may be partial.

The Circus hit it’s 600th post this week. Six Hundred posts, no drafts sitting in the log back there waiting. I went through and deleted all of those a few weeks ago. It’s amazing this little corner of my world where I write. I have become quite comfortable here…So. Happy 600th ya’ll!

This time last year I was in NYC. It was rainy there, just like it is here today. It was as if the city was just on quiet time. Somber had settled over each corner of each neighborhood. A group of us ducked into a place in Little Italy for lunch and there was a huge table full of NYPD and NYFD guys with their families and it was an amazing sight. Like something out of a movie. I was blessed to be there last year, and as it goes, will keep everyone close in my heart today.

I have a friend who moved from here to there. He worked at our memorial and is not working at their’s. I bet he doesn’t know “c’mere from sic’em” today. Gah.

Going to the theatre tonight. Freebie dress rehersal of Born Yesterday. Tomorrow night, going to C2 for Come Back to the Five and Dime Jimmmy Dean, Jimmy Dean. Sat is comedy with the redhead. It’s a full dance card folks! Hope yours is too.

weighing in today and have been what I THINK is pretty good this week. cross fingers and wish lightness!

Lookie here! Here I am! Got to sleep in a little, got some good strong coffee and it’s a brand new day. Gave back my honorary membership to the Funky Bunch and am ready to roll today.

I hated to get so excited about the show because I KNOW how difficult it will be to break back into this community after having been gone so long. I get it. But I just did get excited. The show would have been fun, but being with the cast and forming new friendships and spending time doing SOMETHING with my life…that was the real appeal. But ok. Ok. Onwards and upwards.

Thanks for the well wishes and good lucks and fuck off’s. You guys are the best!

I did get some great feedback from the directors who asked me to please come back and audition for their next shows. They specifically asked me to come audition for Forbidden Broadway. So that was nice. They didn’t have to spend any extra time giving me extra pats and they really did.

Seems like I had more to blither on about…alas…outta my head. Have a great day!

there will be a night…when things go well…I get to be exactly what someone is looking for…and will be in a show.

tonight is not that night.

oh well.

onwards and upwards.

around 7pm my time…Callbacks!!

GAK!! I would have so much freaking gee dee fun on this show.

I really would.

Gah.

Cross fingers.

I’m going to paint my face.

So I did more auditions this weekend. I could only go to callbacks at Carpenter Square because I worked all day on Saturday. Usually this isn’t really a problem. It’s kind of a relaxed atmosphere. On this day however…flop. I read once. Three lines. Gah. It was depressing and gross and I just thought, fuck it. I’m done for the year and will get my head shots done in NYC and come back and just try it again later. My friend got cast, and while she and I are in the same age range, she’s playing a 60 year old mother. So who knows. anyways, she told me about more auditions and I went last night and got called back for tonight!!!

At least it’s something, ya know? I’ve been out of the community for too long it seems, and getting back in is HARD. But maybe. Hopefully. Possibly. Maybe. I will let you know how it goes.

After the audition we went up to watch the comedy guys. Funny night. I love it. Just as I was leaving however, a car full of other actors showed up and I got lured back in for one more drink and about a million more laughs. It was nice to get to know some of the group, and I feel a little less like an outsider now.

I JUST WANNA DO A SHOW!!!!!!!!
gah.

In other news, on my own little Mayberry experience, my neighbor next door (who was tack to me when I first moved in but isn’t any more) came over and invited me to join her and some of her other retired teachers in a book club!! They are reading Willa Cather’s One of Ours. They are working their way thru the Pulitzer Prize winners. I think this counts for my “read more classics” on the 108 in 2008 list! We will meet at a B&N close to my house Tuesday after work. I LOVE this.

It seems good, this life I’m living. I feel like I’ve expanded my circle of friends, started moving outside my comfort zone and experiencing new things. I actually got a handle on a place I might try for church. Gert and I have been tossing this idea around and wanting to go for a long time now, even talked about it this weekend. Turns out the redhead is going there and he really likes it too. So maybe…

Speaking of the redhead, he’s up this week at our local comedy club. Anyone local want to join me in a viewing Saturday night??? Let me know and I’ll handle the reservations.

Speaking of funny…check out the guys and their new venture into the podcasting world.

I might be finished feeding you stuff this morning.
I love ya! It’s a very fall day here in the great state that I live in, which means that we’re in the “in between i have no idea what the hell to wear” time. Gah. I’m off to pilfer and piece together something black.

Have a great day!

hope you guys had as much fun on your weekend as I’ve had on mine. Saturday night was another for the books. Laid back, good food, lot’s of drink and even more laughter. Life is good.

I have more to tell but I am hungry and am getting a headache. I’ll be back later.

Happy Monday!!

Today was a day.

I woke up at 4 a.m. and laid there tossing and turning till 5 and then just gave up. It was a day that I had on my mind. Early morning work meeting. Morning appointments. Funeral. So apparently that was running through my head and I just got no sleep.

The morning was good. Got to the meeting dressed in my funeral clothes. The girls were all so nice to compliment me. It was a new dress. Fitted. It’s been a long time since I’ve worn this size and I felt a little uncomfortable. So that was nice.

My first appointment of the day was the redhead which always makes me smile. I got presents today though. Gifts that were “procured” from the Democratic National Convention. Signs from the floor. The ones that you saw gillions of people waving. I got a red one proclaiming more of the same and a blue one urging change. I. Love. Them.

Then my second appointment canceled. and I had two haircuts and a funeral left in my day.

I got one of those I’ve-been-up-too-early-too-much-coffee-not-enough-food-cried-at-a-funeral-headaches that I just couldn’t shake. I was supposed to go the the opening night of the theatre tonight. In memory of Suzanne the 25th Season has been dedicated to her. I got home and just crashed a little on the couch. felt just kind of sick. bleagh. anyway, rested up and regrouped and talked to Chrome for awhile tonight and laughed and now I feel better. I’ve started kind of cleaning the house, preparing for company tomorrow night. We are gathering to eat and drink and laugh and just shake off the week of the RNC. Gah!

So my day tomorrow looks promising. Ya’ll!!! Cross fingers that people show up!! Have a great night. My brain is jello and I should have more to say, but sure the heck don’t.

EXCEPT!!!
Tonight was a boy’s birthday party. The boy is the boy that belongs to the family that is headed up by B and ScottyRingo. There were 11 children and a blow-up-thingy-ma-jigger and at last contact B was fighting the strep throat. Here’s to them. I hope they survived and are enjoying the weekend! good night and good luck!

This post made me laugh. Not in that knee-slappin-choke-on-your-own-spit kind of laugh. More the sardonic-all-knowing-of-course-he-did kind of laugh.

Enjoy.

The cheating gene post raised a few hackles and more than a few questions around here. While a few of you called total bullshit on the whole thing, some people gave it a little credit.

Chris’s comment made me stop and think a little…

I can’t speak for anyone else around the Circus, but I personally don’t believe homosexuality, in the majority of people–not saying everyone–is a “choice” I have had more than one or twelve conversations about this with a man that is my heart. We have dissected and discussed over and over again. I just think it’s how we’re made. I just do. You do NOT have to believe this with me. I’m not asking for scripture or for subjecture or for anything else. I am merely telling you how I feel.

It reminded me of a show that we did in college. Chris, Chrome and myself. The Twilight of the Golds. In my opinion, one of the best scripts we ever produced on that stage. In my other opinion (cuz I have more than one) some of the best work any of us on that stage ever did. Just good stuff.

The Golds are a nice Jewish family. Mom, Dad, Sister married happily to Scientist Man, and Gay Brother obsessed with Wagner’s Ring Cycle. Scientist Brother in Law(who is working on the Human Genome Project) and Sister get pregnant and have the gene test done on the fetus. Turns out it has the “gay gene” What do they do.

The cheating gene. The gay gene. The cancer gene. While some seem more far fetched than others, it appears that we live in an age where this information is available. What do we do with it?

Is there enough strength in relationships to step out in faith and say…I will be faithful? While marriage statistics don’t prove it I know people who have been doing this for many many years. Or do we take a test?

Interesting conversation topic.