Anxious?

I’m anxious today. Trying to do a checklist on what could be the reason…I got my house appraised Monday, and thanks to some kamakazee housecleaning and help from Mgirl, it looked really spic and span when the guy came. I haven’t heard what it appraised for, but I forked over the 400 bucks it cost to get it done. I’m still really walking in faith that this is the right thing to be doing. I have no idea the interest rate, or the financail gain I’m going to get from this endeavor. We’ll see.

Rehearsal was good last night. We got act 2 blocked. We’re all together from here on out and that gives me comfort. Running and working scenes. Tonight we’re off book on act 1 and for the most part, I feel good about it. I have to say a prayer in Hebrew…or is it Yiddish…as a good Jew I should know the difference. I’ll google it. Anyways, it’s hard. I’ve got it written out phonetically, and it’s such a gutteral language, lots of sounds in back of the throat like your hocking up a loogie. gag. Anyways, I am going to really work hard and that first night without holding a book is like showing up at work naked. GAK!!!!!!!

I got my dentist bill paid off yesterday. THANK THE GOOD LORD! nuff said about that. I hate owing people. especially when my friends are the ones that are billing me. just a gross feeling.

My car is in the shop. She got crunched about a year ago, and I’ve just been driving her that way. My windshield cracked too so all of that is getting fixed. I’m driving a rental…a little Mazda 5. it’s a cross between an suv and a mini van. it’s got the captains chairs all in it and the back doors are the sliding ones. reminds me of the tour van Chrome and I drove all over Hells’ Half Acre. but smaller. It’s fine.

So maybe all of that is the anxious that I feel today. It’s going to get to 71 today, so that makes me just giddy. looks like mid 80’s friday and saturday! Halakaleem!!!

I’m heading to Arkansas this weekend. Wonderboy is having his birthday party a week early so that I can be present. It was no skin off of his nose though…means getting presents early AND on the day! kid is no fool. I’m going to shop for him a something for the Wii. A gun perhaps? some sort of something. I haven’t been there since the holidays, it’ll be good to see everyone. Wonderbaby is probably eating steak and heading to college by now. Hopefully he and I will have some quality bonding time.

Is there anything else? I dunno….have a great wednesday everybody! I’m gonna fix myself some breakfast and get this day started!.

One Minute At A Time

Collectively they will add up to my Fifteen Minues Of Fame…courtesy of my boys over at 796 Entertainment. I’ve been getting shout outs by the fist full….(dirty!)
Go and have a little listen. Scroll back thru the archives. There’s some good stuff here…Tiny Dancers was one of my favorites. G Whiz was probably the best.

I’m running late today. Will post more of my ridiculous life after rehearsal.

Happy Tuesday!

Be more SPECIFIC…

Had a blast last night with GirlKris and SHicks2 and some theatre folk. First time to actually get to hang out after a show with this group so I was happy. We went to the homobar and watched some pretty bad drag, laughed and had some cold beers. After the show was over, we hopped over to the BIGGAYBAR. It has a big dance club and it was pretty crowded, so we motored into the cowboy bar. I like it better in there. All of these bars used to be my accounts when I worked the beer, so I know my way around them and hey, they are my chosen people so totally at home.

At the first bar, I got to meet the cutest red headed boy…he’s in the show. (Almost, Maine…not the drag show) I’d seen him around the theatre and when we worked the phones during begging week he was there…so cute. tall. lanky. the most beautiful curly red hair I’ve ever seen…

married.
and to a really nice girl, apparently. Not that it would make a difference if it was a really bitchy girl, I gave up married men for Lent, but still. sigh.

tall glass of the perfectly flavored Kool-Aid on a hot, dry, deserted desert day…

I feel I need to be more specific to the universe when asking for my glass of Kool Aid. I’d like to have exactly what I mentioned, only single. and I need him not to have problems with emotions. Let’s just both be able to say..ok? ok. OK!!!!

back to the gay cowboy bar. I was singing to the music, we were all laughing and I was telling the story of bringing Dionysas to this bar to prove that there are homo cowboys who two step. He’d just seen Happy Texas and was just bumfuzzled at the whole concept. That was the weekend of the BigGayBowling tourney and the place was packed. I had THE BEST dances with this accountant from Austin. He spun me all over that dance floor, swish, swish swish….(that’s the sound of our dancing. not his walk.) We just had the best time. He said growing up gay in Texas, dot dot dot. Well one does not grow up gay in Texas. One plays straight, so he learned to dance with women. He didn’t like dancing with men…anyways I was retelling this story thinking, I’d like to dance when…

“would you like to dance?”

(i believe I’ve told you how I will dance with anyone who asks me. I think it’s a difficult thing to ask someone to dance and the possibility of rejection is so great…so 9 times out of 10 I say yes.)

And we spun and danced and spun and danced and it was a little funky at first but we just kind of found our groove and laughed.

I said,

“Thanks for the dance, Betty.”

And she thanked me as well. I went back to my group thinking…

I have GOT to be more specific.

BE.
MORE.
SPECIFIC!!!