Yesterday’s lack of momentum bleed over into my book…three or four cancellations/no shows. OY! So today, today it is all about focusing on…focus. I think I may be really busy from 9 till 7 tonight. I did sleep pretty well, but woke up around 4 with my back/hips hurting, so got up and streached and went back to the bed. slept that sleep where you dream you’re oversleeping. OY!

but the coffee is beeping. two of the three cats are breakfasting. I have the opportunity to make some money today. I’m seeing a play tonight. Tomorrow is the weekend. IT’S ON!

focus.
coffee.
coffee then focus.

MUAH!

I feel like I’ve lost momentum. . . with the creative process. Once I determined my date to try stand up, and wrote for a few weeks…I’ve kind of lost focus. Even in my brain, my mantras won’t stick, I’m scattered.

Wha???

What should I do? How can I get refocused? Gah.

Had a nice evening last night. That moon was GORGEOUS, eh? Chrome text me and I went outside for a little Mood Goddess action…so beautiful. Dad was in town for a night, so he sprayed my yard for the crabgrass and weeds. Now, when all of that dies everything will just be brown and dead. I’ll have to fertalize and water the bejesus out of it…but hopefully it’ll be pretty. Also, I’ve been mowing it too short. Huh. who knew. Anyways, he took me to Cattlemen’s for dinner. Great wine, delicious filet medium rare, salad, rolls. Slurp. I was gonna cook but…eh. that was better.

He’s got some contract work down here again, so he’ll be making more frequent stops. We’re going to put ceiling fans in the two bedrooms for the next project. Hopefully…I love me some fans.

I had a decent book today, until it all cancelled yesterday. I’m confident that people will call in, that the week will fill back out! I’m going to go sit and find my focus for awhile…hopefully…

Happy Humping Day!

Aaaaaaaaand just like that…it’s over.

We’re all back at the grindstone, back at the desk, back to the routine…but it was fun wasn’t it? How was your weekend? Mine was just dandy. Really, not that busy, not THAT social. The weather was cloudy and rainy which put dampers on laying out. I laid in and watched the entire series of Sex and the City…think I watched seasons one thru three during the week, then pounded four thru six this weekend, ending at 10:30 last night with me weeping and loving that show all over again. sigh.

My 4th was good, we had massive storms but they blew over in time for the big fireworks show. The burgers were fabulous. The company was grand. I was home and asleep by 12:30. I slept late every day, waking up then dozing back for hours. I cleaned. Seriously cleaned. Picked up all the firtch. Vacuumed. Dusted everything, even ceiling fans. Swept and mopped kitchen and bathroom. Grocery shopped. Rearranged my kitchen, moved coffee maker and microwave, made more counter space. Laundry. Mowed front yard. One of my favorite things I did was finally frame some pics. I bought this four spot frame for some family photos we had done last summer, but it was the wrong size. SO what I did was found four of my favorite NYC pics and put them in.

I have the Lennon memorial that says IMAGINE from Central Park, the red front door of Gilda’s Club, the Village Voice and of course Carrie Bradshaws stoop. I hung it right here by my computer…sigh. love love love.

I’ve got a busy week, meeting at the theatre tonight to drop off donations for our fundraiser. Dad is coming to spend the night, as well. Thursday is a play at the theatre, Friday is a birthday party, Saturday I’m having a cookout/hangout over here. My book is pretty full at work, too. I’ve got a few crazies on there, but apparently that’s my special gift so bring it on!

I guess they are going to bury Michael today? is that right? Man…just get this done already. There’s a big whoop te doo at the Staples Center this afternoon…Today show is reporting. All of these people traveling in to be a part of it. It’s gonna be bigger than big…

I need a lil more coffee to get my morning started. Here’s hoping you have all successfully recovered from your Red White and Blue weekend! Savor it folks, we’ll be bitching about snow soon enough!

This is, hands down, my favorite holiday. It always has been. Growing up, we did this holiday soooooo right. Fireworks, cooking out at Lake Batshitcrazytown. more fireworks. It was always such fun to go buy them, getting to pick out just exactly what you wanted…and while the parents were sure to fight about something and cause tension across the land, they usually kept it in check enough to not put a damper on the night…either that or we were just so hopped up on homemade ice cream and sparklers that we didn’t notice…just waiting, waiting, WAITING for the sun to go down and that anticipation of the big display over the lake to start…

i love it.

It’s a great day. If I ever get married again, I’m doing it on July 4th.

Speaking of weddings, went to a fabulous one last night at my other families facility in Batshitcrazytown. Gert’s dad renovated our old TAG building, the old Post Office and turned it into THE VENUE to celebrate anything at. The wedding was gorgeous. the food was great. the beer was cold. the band was really good. The bride was perfect. the groom was smiling from ear to ear. I got to bartend for several hours, running interference with different people. This family lost their husband/father two or three years ago to a heart attack, the date of that is Monday. so for the MOB, this was one helluva night to get through. She and I snuck out and sat on the steps and cried and melted down for about an hour, then made it back into the party. She has become one of my favorite people in the world, and I knew yesterday would be hard for her…but she made it and it was a superfun party.

Today, the girls and I are heading to the lake and floating on some water. we’ll gather at LT’s house tonight for a cookout and fireworks. She lives right across the street from the college in Edmond, where there is a GINORMOUS display tonight. One of the top ten, so says CNN and USA Today…laid back and easy!

What are you doing? How are you celebrating? Wherever you are, whatever you’re doing be safe. have fun. and tonight, when the sun goes down and the sky lights up…think of me and smile. I’ll be doing the same!

Gaping hole….is what the Hooker left in my day when she rescheduled at 10am this morning…

as well as what she herself has to deal with on a daily basis.

BA Dum BUH!!!

My day filled nicely. I got to do some good hair. Met some nice people (FROM NYC!! HOLLA!!!) helped out my Tween age cousin who decided to Pony Boy himself…
and wound up looking like… UT Orange….gah.

Had a nice evening with MGirl and we had some gooooood heart to heart conversation…so good.

Tomorrow…one more day till the VACA. I have a fabulous wedding to attend tomorrow night.

yep. The Plains. 7:30pm. OUTSIDE.

heh heh heh.

Hells bells. I was prepared for the Hooker Perm today. I’m ready for anything!

Trixie confirmed with a “yeah yeah yeah” to the call yesterday.
She will be arriving at 1.
or by her past record, somewhere around 1:20 this afternoon.

Time to focus energies, gentle readers. Time to light candles. Time to whisper to the blades of grass, do a dance, eat some cake, fart the alphabet. Anything that will get me through this successfully. Because, seriously, if she starts trying to eat me like she ate poor Baby K at her first visit?

Donkey Punch.
End of story.

So…no negative. NO darkness. Only light. Then….lots of LITE! HA!

Last night I had a grand time at sushi with Elephantsoap and Numskullery and Gert. Gert is on the vaca and was wound tighter than an 8 day clock, whilst the three of us were numb from a long hard day at work! We rallied and perked up and the final mumblings were something along the lines of

me: I’m so full. I can’t.
Elephantsoap: NO SUSHI LEFT BEHIND!!!

Lots of laughter. Lots of joy. Life and it’s tiny moments of magic…are just gifts, aren’t they? Numskullery and I started talking about The Book. and UP. I was the only one at the table that has yet to see it, so it’s on my list. SOON. I love conversations with kindred souls. Empowering and motivating.

Gert’s off to the lake with her people.
The Super Green Couple is heading to the wilderness to camp.
I have two more days of banging hair and then a wedding tomorrow night…then peace. Glorious peace that includes meat cooked over fire, floating on water, being with friends and fireworks. FIREWORKS! This is my favorite holiday. Last year…i saw no fireworks. it was sad sad sad. Well, Wonderboy’s, but not the REALLY BIG ONES. I’m super geared up for it this year!

I’m going to try to take pictures of Trixie and her perm today, to post here tonight or tomorrow for your holiday enjoyment. I figure, no one has ever attempted to perm this much hair before, so it can be documented in a legit fashion. . .

1pm people. Dancing. Chanting. Praying. Farting. Whatever you feel the need to do…do it in my general direction.

The office looks like Kodak blew up in here. I’ve been scanning pictures like a frenzied meth addict in order to upload them to our reunion website…well, turns out I can download and install the proper software, I can scan, I can actually follow the directions to upload galleries onto the site…but I cannot figure out how to adjust the photos themselves. They are wonky sideways. The scan pallet is showing around the photo. they load the size of a thumbnail and I cannot figure it out.

FRUSTRATION!!!!!

I feel like I’ve lost momentum this week. I was doing so good with my mantra and my focus and my energy…that thing with the guy a few weeks ago kind of took me out at the knees, whether I want to admit it or not…the impending standup is still charging my battery but I am listening to my Doubt voice more and more…I was talking to Elephantsoap yesterday and it seems as if we’re all in the middle of this weird existential mid life crisis…not so much doom and gloom and I need to buy a Corvette, but just a longing for more, a need for something…tangible or not. Searching and seeking and getting it, finally…

making sense?
striking a chord?
not even close?

ehhhh. ok.
I’m right in the thick of it.

I have a pretty solid book today thru Friday. Tomorrow is the Hooker Perm. Today is payday! I didn’t make comission but once again feel like I can pay my bills. Cutting that cable off helped. My bill went from 124.00 last month to 48 something this month. Now…I think it’ll go back up because of the prorate and mid month cutoff stuff but still. That’s awesome. I did finally call Sprint and cut my bill down a bit. M’Lynn and I are on a family plan and that limits us to certain things, however if we both went to individual plans? We’d be paying the same stuff combined. Anyways, my phone is on it’s last leg and I have four weeks till my upgrade goes into effect.

The Wanting side of my brain says Palm-Pre. The I Can Afford This Without Having to Start Hooking side of my brain says whatever Blackberry is on sale…we’ll see. If the lil pink phone can just hold out four more weeks…Remember when cell phones were free?

I’m still still STILL spending too much money socializing. Twenty here. Twenty there. I have GOT to get a grip on it kids…and am mulling over the offer of working at the War Bar with Gert. She and I have facetime tonight and we’ll talk about it…Still think it’d be better to find a job around here locally…not have that drive…we’ll see.

Happy Humping Day! Huzzuah and Halakaleem and I love you!…and on a side note:

Today would have been Princess Diana’s 48th birthday.
I loved her, with all of my heart…