I wonder

Sometimes I wonder if I’d just be better off nailing the door shut with myself and the cats inside.
Sometimes I wonder if relationships are worth any of it.
Sometimes I wonder how I got to where I am.
Sometimes I wonder if I’ve really been where I’ve been.
Sometimes I wonder if this is really where I’m supposed to be.
Sometimes I wonder if this is as good as it gets, and I should stay put.
Sometimes……I wonder.
ennui.