Had a beautiful conversation with Gert last night. Face time. After all this time. We covered many topics, but mostly discovered that the changes and emotions and layers that we are uncovering within ourselves, is happening to both of us. At the same time. And as our words spilled out and slid over and overlapped into another memory, it became real. Valid. Things have always been clear for both of us, especially on certain topics, yet until we get to lay them on the table they kind of float around in the air, not solid, not nailed down and real. It’s one of the greatest things. In the history of ever, to feel such validation from someone who knows your heart.
I was told yesterday that someone was blessed to have me around. It is a grand compliment, and it’s a new relationship so I don’t really know how to take it. However, to be blessed…truly into your heart and bone marrow blessed by a friend is, I believe a bit of heaven on earth. And I am.
Life is rolling around and inside me this week. I feel as if I’m on a precipice…something is coming…discovery. I can feel it. It’s manifesting itself in different areas…I’ve been writing for the first time in years, feeling compelled to get words on paper…feeling 100% of everything in any given moment as if all of my nerves were laid bare…spontanious tears and delicious laughter too…renewal maybe.
Just maybe.
life begins.
again.
I wanted to post a youtube song here, but for some reason, my computer doesn’t want me to. So you. go. Youtube this: billy bragg i keep the faith.
listen.
it’s my theme right now.
myspacers, it’s also my song on my homepage.
and above all, have a great day!!! i’m taking my fat ass to the gym. THERE’s a place for some rebirth!!
Misti Ridiculous 