The Circus hit it’s 700th post with the dancing elf. Seven HUNDRED posts~~~crazy! I can’t imagine not having this place. Thank you Kizz for being the first, for emailing me saying “i’m doing this writing thing here. but i don’t want anyone to know about it yet” Then Gert. It’s an outlet that I don’t know what I’d do without! so…

Happy Seven Hundred to all the Circus Players!!! Huzzuah and Halakaleem!

Yesterday was one of my favorite days ever. I woke up early and started baking. I made a few dozen cinnamon rolls, a big pot of chicken and noodles, a loaf of bread. My house got cleaned and shiny and candles were lit. Love Actually was playing and I was watching my favorite bits over and over. The redhead came over and helped hang lights, for which I am eternally grateful. He took home a goodie bag that included all the above mention food items and the movie, as he’d never see it. He’s now a fan.

I then went to the play committee meeting, with rolls because I didn’t finish my homework so I had bribes. After that, several of us went to the movies. What’s that you say? What did I see?

Oh.
My.
God.

I saw this:

Have any of you seen it? Yes. Yes. Yes!!!! I was really exhausted after it was over. It is EPIC. All caps. EPIC and Grand and Amazing and Beautiful and Touching and Scary and Hearwrenching and Exciting and Gorgeous…..sigh. I love it. I may have to own it.

I sing you to me Miss Boss….And I will hear you.

SO FREAKIN GOOD.

I have a few errands to run today. One of which is getting a contractor for the garage door. Yep yep. Then mostly just snuggling in and reading scripts. I hope you are having a great day. Go see that movie. Seriously.

It was a nutty week. Finally over. As I promised myself earlier, whilst getting over the cold, I’m staying in all weekend. No going out. No smokey bars. No bar tabs. Saving money. Saving myself.

However, I did go see a play last night. But I used my friends comp ticket, so nothing spent other than gas. The play was fun. I laughed. Probably not the evening that the director invisioned her audience having, but I laughed nonetheless. Very enjoyable evening.

I also got to have a little chat with one of the actors/my friend/director of a show coming up in the spring who said, again, that he wants me to be cast in the show! I’m super excited! it’s called Left Hand Singing. I read it twice, and really liked it. So…maybe in a month or so I’ll be starting rehearsals! Halakaleem!

Tonight, after a fairly busy day of working, I’m at home. I hit the grocery, got some dinner and am now settled in. OU plays in the Big 12 Championship here in a few minutes, so I’ll be tuned in to that. I also plan on doing some cleaning, picking up and vaccuming. I have a hankering to cook. Cinnamon rolls, maybe a batch tonight! Also picked up the stuff for chicken and noodles….well except I forgot the noodles. I’ll get them tomorrow. We’re supposed to get rain and snow the first of the week so I’m ready!

The redhead is coming over to help put lights on the house tomorrow. I’m having our company Pre-Christmas-Party-Party over here and want things to be just so. This next week has a few things booked already so my hopes are high for this evening and tomorrow. I may need to make a list.

There are angels all around me this week. I’ve recieved calls and emails and more help than I deserve about the garage door opener. I’m going Monday to get the contractor to install it. Many many many thanks.

Harry Potter is having himself a wee marathon on ABC Family today/tonight. I wish he’d bring his redheaded friend over here and wave that wand and make all my work finish up!

Good Saturday night to you all. I hope you’re either whooping it up Big Willy Style, or are nestled in, snug and sweet.

happy.

First and foremost, Dad is fine. I spoke with him yesterday when he was on his way home. He had been dismissed from the hospital a few hours early and was feeling fine. Sounded better. Who knows if it was actually a result of the procedure or psychological but better nonetheless. So that’s good.

The garage door ate my lunch yesterday.
Lowes wanted 110.00 for installation above the cost of the machine. I figured,hell. I know a lot of guys, surely…surely.

uh. no.

I got rejected more times yesterday than I did in High School. One friend, the angry redhead what has a good streak, did say he could do it, but is leaving town this weekend and who knows when he’ll be back. I don’t like the fact that someone can get into my garage. I keep the door into my house double locked, but that’s just not the point. It’s a safety issue and a peace of mind issue.

So, I looked at it. There are DIY instructions online. The good redhead has offered his help. I think I may attack the sumbitch this Sunday. . .

but I don’t want to. I just want it to be done for me. Is that stupid? Naive? Ridiculous? Yes. Yes to all of it.

I spent yesterday vacillating between praying for clients and worrying to fever blister levels about money, spending 182.00 on a garage door opener, being pissed off that I had to do it, being pissed off that there wasn’t a man in my life, with a joint checking account and benefits who could help me with this…god. pathetic. But then I got a few more clients yesterday. One of my ladies gave me a 50.00 Christmas gift. It was better.

Breathe.

But I still don’t know whether or not to just hire someone or try to do it myself. I have two more people left to call, but they will cost. Hopefully less than the Lowes contractor. so that’s still an option.

Homeownership.

gottafuckingloveit.

OH. and here’s a little nugget. My homeowner’s warranty expired last month. I was going on the month that I bought the house, when actually the previous owners purchased the warranty when they first put the house on the market. I don’t have the extra 500 bucks to throw out for a new one right now. Not until taxes come in the spring. Let’s all just cross fingers!

I have an early morning meeting at work today, so I need to chop chop. Going to Carpenter Square to see their holiday show tonight. I have three friends acting in it. We’ll see. The director has tried to weave this bullshit connecting thread to Hamlet into it. good grief. It’s a HOLIDAY SHOW!!!! But I’ll get to hang with Rhonda and talk shop then home. Free ticket. wahoo!!! I’m considering staying in for the weekend as well. Big 12 football championship tomorrow night, but maybe…maybe I’ll just stay home watch from here, and get out my paints and be crafty with the cats. maybe I will.

Happy Friday to you Normals! Enjoy your day!!!

Came home early last night. Finished my last client at 6:30. I usually work until 8 on Wednesdays. I’m not going to fill this post with more worry and gloom. We are all in this funk together I suppose. We will just hang onto hope.

A few bright sides to yesterday. My dad was having some heart work done. A heart cath to check for blockage. Well, it was originally scheduled for just that. But when they got there, they decided that was stupid. They would admit him into the hospital, do the cath, and if they DID find blockage they would put in a stint right then. Gah. Complicated. So. they did. And they DID find his right main artery to be 95% blocked. shit fuck damn. BUT they put in the stint and it should all be fine. He’ll be on some sort of meds (aspirin, Pl@vix) something like that for the rest of his life. But it’s all good.

What with all of the free time at work, I’ve been doing a lot of reading. Just finished Steve Martin’s Born Standing Up. Brilliant. I would find bits and text the redhead during the day because they are such similar brains. Yesterday I started on my first David Sederais book. Naked. LOVE IT thus far. he may make the boyfriend list. God but I love intelligent and funny men.

Let me just throw in one teensy weensy bitch. My garage. The automatic door opener is pulling a brokedown palace. SUCK. So ok. Fine. It’s gonna be ass cold today so last night I pull up, get out, manually lift the door which won’t stay all the way up. BUT i get it to say, try to pull in the car and I’ve forgotten to remove the recycle bin, so I hit (tap) the dryer with my car. shit. then the hangy down thingy from the garage door opener scrapes the SHIT off of the top of my car as I back it out as well as the actual door which has come down too. It’s not that I’m a papmered chick who must have an automatic door, the one I’ve got just wont stay open so I can get the car in! GAH. Lucy and Ethel park a car. So.I’m calling Overhead Door today for an estimate and will just charge it on the card. I know. I Know. but Dad is sick. It’s really cold. This is what single women do. We just take care of our stuff our own selves. Will keep you updated on that soon.

Ok kids. It’s off to work for me today. More reading, fresh hair for me. Have also promised myself to go back to WW and weigh in today. Gah. bleagh. Looking at pics of Kizz and Chrome has inspired me to get back to it.

Have a great day. Seriously. I know that times suck. We’re all broke. Jobs are shitty. Relationships are a bitch. But you know what? We’re still here!

We
Are
Still
Here!!!

not really. but it’s so gee dangd windy out there that I’m scared to open the door. egads! We’re supposed to get a ‘cold front’ tonight and our 60 degree weather is turning to 20’s. beautiful. brrrrrrrrrrr. anyways.

I feel better. Went to bed at 7:30 and woke up a few times but mostly just slept. Stayed in bed till about 9 this morning. Still stopped up and hacky, but not that nasty feeling like yesterday.

Working 12-8 today. maybe off earlier, who knows with this schedule. None of us barely have any appointments this week. Pray. Hard. for this paycheck. This is the paycheck that buys Christmas gifts. sad but true.

On a brighter note, today is CaliCousin 1’s birthday! (yeah. yesterday was 2’s. funny that way) He’s ten years younger than I am but our sense of humor is EXACTLY ALIKE! I fear that we’d be lethal should we live closer. So Here To You Mr.Man. I remember driving down to Texas and holding you all weekend long. So glad that’s over. Would look really awkward if we tried it now! Happy birthday Cuz!! Love you!!!

So.
Apparently I have a cold.

What’s that you say?

Why yes. I do realize that I am on the go an awful lot.

I need to stay still and get more rest?

Yes. I agree.

I’m making a chicken pot pie. In the oven. Not microwave. then I’m taking a fistfull of lil blue pills. (not viagra) and hitting the sack. Apparently with Kikimama, who has joined herself to my body. If she could suckle, I believe she’d give it a try. What the hell???

so. anyways. take your Vitamin C folks. It’s that time of year.

stupid cold. I’m a freakin rockstar. doesn’t it know that????

Back to work today. Everyone cross fingers that I get some work this week. Just focus. I have faith it will come…

So last night, I decided to not go to Monday night comedy and stayed home. MGirl and I went to Wal-Mart and Lowes and got lights and a tree. Yes, I know, I said yesterday that I had no money. I still don’t. But I found an old gift card that I never used and got my tree for 24 bucks! Wahoooooo!!! so by not going to the club for comedy, and not spending 25 bucks on drinks and snacks, I bought a tree. and my house smells soooooo good.

it has 900 lights on it. it’s gorgeous.

I have some holiday stuff out at the Frontier that I may go get this evening, and the redhead has said he’d help me put the lights on the front of the house then all will be complete.

Can I just tell you that December is already filling up? Ca-ray-zee. But it’s just the way it is. Life is for living. And going and doing and experiencing and warm kitties curled up in your lap.

Are your animals extra needy as of late? I swear, KikiMama is in my lap all the time. Runs to get in my lap when i sit down. Sammy is there if she isn’t and Stormy a.k.a. Jabba the Hut is inside at night and just purrrrrs and loves…is it the weather? I don’t know but I love it!

Tomorrow is Dad’s surgery. I think we find out the times and details today. Tomorrow is also my 3 year anniversary at work. How long? THREE YEARS! which means I graduated three years ago TODAY.

time just zooms by.

In that spirit, it’s my Cali Cousin 2’s birthday today! Lord but i remember when she was born. Sweet sweet baby girl. All grown’s up. CC2, Have a Very Fabulous Day! I love you! Here’s a little party coming your way:

Well, we all made it thru NaBloPoMo this year. I posted everyday, though sometimes my days ended with a timestamp of the next morning. so what. It was good this year, to go, to read daily. Nice.

And now we sit here. December first. World Aids Day. Take a moment today, to remember, to reflect. Our friends, our family. Us.

I’ve taken yesterday and today with ease and side of sloth. Yesterday I made a big ole pot of Gypsy Posole that I’ve eaten on all day long. I did go up to watch the Colts, but we left at halftime. Tired. needed couch. I napped and snacked all day yesterday and put myself into the bed around 9:30 or so. felt good. Slept late again today and have done some good stuff. Cleaned out the garage, however my garage door opener is broken. I’ll have to do the manual open and close until I can get some $ to fix it or get a new one. It’s ancient so I can see a total replacement in my future. Anyways, it’s going to be ass funk cold here this week, so I made some room for my car. Also did some laundry, hung up tons of clothes in my closet, ran the dyson, moved my furniture around to make room for the Christmas tree! I’ve begun moving and removing the knick knacks to make room for the holiday. Went to get my paycheck and put it in the bank.

Gah.

I’m hoping I still have tons of lights out in storage,because times are tough kids. after the mortgage…we get to pick out one or two lucky bills that get paid and hope for tips this week! As it stands now, I’ve got one or two appointments a day. that’s it.

depressing. really really depressing. But it picked up right before Thanksgiving, so cross fingers.

I just hate not having the money to go get a tree and some lights. boo. flop. maybe tomorrow, though. We will see what the day brings.

ahhh. typing makes me sleepy. thinking I will move to the couch for a nap. last day of vaca, ya know.

MGirl’s birthday was an official success! Got her to her front door around 2am, taco burgers in hand and just a little wobbily! Well done. Well done indeed. HOLY CRAP that game last night! Anyone watch? OU won. Halakaleem. MGirl was for OSU, so she was a lil bummed, and there were some really obnoxious OU fans at the place where we gathered. Gah. Annoying. But BOOMER SOONER baby!!! Wahoo!

Today, I’m tired. I’m going to throw on a ball cap and head up to watch the Colts play at noon, then home. Home to do some cleaning, and planning for my holiday decorating that will happen this next week and weekend. This will be the first time I’ve opened hte Christmas stuff since I left Ex-Him. My first Christmas in my house. The first lights on the outside. Lot’s of good stuff this week.

I really get into it. And am hosting our pre-party for our company party this month, so it needs to be glammed up!

Ok, kids. I’m checking the laundry, getting more coffee and going to try to do it without interrupting the napping being done by LBSambo here on my lap. yeah. good luck with that, eh?