Whew it’s chilly kids! Chilly chilly chilly. Luckily enough Marco the Great got the heat working via a shiny new thermalcouple and two trips to my house yesterday. We’re all snug as a bug in a rug and having a hard time getting up and getting the day started!!

I’m ready for the week. Time to make some money. Yesterday consisted of me, the couch, Ironman, Knocked Up, the last disc of season two of Weeds, more eps of new tv than I can count. Gah. Time to get up and get moving! But I needed a lazy day. The house was cleaned for the party, so I didn’t have a lot of guilt hanging around…nice.

Tonight I’m having dinner with M’Lynn. Haven’t really seen her since the night before I left for NYC, so we have mucho to catch up on. I have to also figure out if I’m dressing up or just wearing a witches hat to work on Friday for Halloween. I have very little interest in that but need to muster up something.

One week from today kids. Vote vote vote. I watched a retrospective on the Today show this morning…from the announcements of ALL the candidates to the last week it’s been a ride hasn’t it? Watched some eps of West Wing last night. It really doesn’t get any better than that, for me anyway.

Ok. I gotta hit the shower and find something black to wear to work. Have just the best day!

Damn.
Even when I get a really good sad/mad/sad on, combined with a reaaaaaaaaaaaly good drunk…can’t seem to hold onto it.

Huh.

Trying to feel any of it this morning. More anger. More sad…and maybe it’s there a little, but not nearly at the levels of yesterday.

Huh.

So ok. Whatever, right? Bless it and let it go. Motor on. Listen to some Shirley Q, relish in the friendships and love in my life, maybe go get a massage today and keep on keepin on.

maybe I just needed a day. (seriously, I wish you could see me sitting here, rolling my eyes from left to right searching for the sad/mad inside.)Huh.

So moving on. It’s freezing ass in my house. I tried to turn on the heat for a quick burst and nada. Guess the pilot light needs lit. Gonna get that working today. Just sent a text to Marco the Great so when the temps get to freezing tonight the livestock and I won’t!

How’s your Monday shaping up? I hope great and we’re gearing up for Halloween and the last freakin week of October. GERT! CHROME! Where the hell did your month go? Zrooooom! that fast eh. And holy hell…I have a birthday coming up. How does anyone local feel about going bowling then hitting Shady Pines or something? Any other ideas…please send them my way!

joe explained to me tonight that the the word SAD is much more heart wrenching and painful to admit than the word MAD.

i agree.

and after more than ENOUGH cocktails and discussion I have to admit I agree.

fact is…

I’M BOTH

I’m mad. at myself, at a man, at another girl, at situations beyond comprehension, at my own ridiculous version of friendship and grace…at all of it.

and I’m sad. bone weary sad at how things turn out. . . even though you pray for a sign. pray with knees on the floor for a sign so you can continue, move on with life, go forth.

kids. . .

I got my sign last night. It was a perfectly coreographed dance of scratch and sniff between two non blondes and here’s the bitch of it…I came out with the short straw. ok. fine.

cue mad.

I realize that I’m talking in circles and no one reading this recognizes which voice is typing but fuck it. it goes back to the fact that this space is mine. and I can say what i want to and purge what I wish and so be it. you don’t really have to understand. or get it. or figure it out. just know that I am mad. really realllllly mad.

and sad.

and if you know me…you know that I won’t answer my phone or leave my house if I don’t have to for as long as it takes…and then…

life begins again.

I know.
The Circus has had an acute case of the Boredoms as of late.

There’s lots to talk about.

I’m currently on a sit down from frantically getting off work (money made today! Honk! Honk!) getting pinion wood and stuff for tiki torches, coming home and cleaning the bits I hadn’t gotten to this week, feeding the livestock, figuring out what to do with the shit in my car so my peeps will fit and embarking to the Ghouls Gone Wild Parade then back to mi casa for punkin carvings and beer.

possibly lots of beer.
and smores.
and laughing with friends, old and new. (I’ve got new friends I can’t wait to share with you!)

but for now folks, I’m outta here. it’s fifteen till time for people to arrive and I as usual look like twelve miles of assholes.

xoxo

Oh chile! It’s ass cold in my casa! But I’m too cheap to turn on the heat yet. I’m afeared for the bills! It’s ok, though. The cats are all snuggly, and I’m layered up and the only bitch is getting out of the bed this week! I actually think that has more to do with the doom of work than the weather!

man, oh man it’s been slow. I have two appointments today. ON A FRIDAY!!! The fuck? Hoping for more call ins/walk ins. It could happen. Gah.

I’ve been watching Weeds this week. Got through season one last weekend, and poured through the first disc of season two last night. As usual, I’m one of the last on the bandwagon, but I don’t have Showtime, so whatever. I’m LOVING IT!!!! LOVE-ING-IT. Sarcastic, brilliant, delicious writing. Laugh out loud stuff. If you are like me and haven’t jumped yet, go. do. enjoy.

I am so tired of waking up to doom and gloom. Anybody else? I think it’s penetrating my psyche. This morning Meredeth and Matt said that the pre-stock-trading crashed a breaker it went so low. Well. Good morning to you too…I think I’m going to just start watching zero news and more Clooney. Though, I would have missed the Weekend Update highlights with Will and Tina. Man, I’m gonna miss that stuff.

Eleven Days.
nuff said.

This weekend should be fun. I’m kidnapping Gert and forcing her to spend every waking minute with me. Tonight we’re headed to Bat Shit Crazy Town for the last home football game. Why not, eh? Tomorrow night we’re doing the Halloween Parade with the March of the 1000 Skeletons led by Flaming Lips dudes, then back to my house for punkin carvins and smores and laughs and fun.

Sunday is committee meeting and some auditions should I choose to do them…love me some weekends!

Ok. I need more coffee. and to start getting ready. But this black kitty is curled up in my lap and it’s so warm and I just don’t wanna. . .

Happy Friday! Huzzuah and Halakaleem!

I got nuthin to share folks.
Nuthin’ positive and nice.
I did three mens cuts today. total. flop.
I’m brokeass mountain. Depositing tips in daily at this point.
I have one eyebrow wax on my book tomorrow. 16 bucks.
I’m fighting the ridiculous hormone battle this week and just want to sleep.
tired. tired. tired.

I did, however, put up my blow up jack o lantern with black kitty on top that looks way cool in my yard.

that was a positive.

oh. and I stole this site from Kizz today. And am TOTALLY doing it this weekend at my Parade and Pumpkins event! That’s gonna be a blast. Halloween parade downtown, then my house back yard for a fire in the chiminea and pumpkin carving!!!

that’s positive too.

maybe I’m just tired.

is 9:33 too early to go to bed?

so I finished my list…all but the vacuuming. I spilled all the smelly stuff on the carpet and then, in my halfwit brain, decided to clean out the filter on the Dyson. . . it’s still drying as I type. Canna put bits back in damp. Gah. Ok, so whatever. I’m clean, for the most part my house is clean. I don’t forsee any major ridiculous this week to dirty it all up so it, in theory, should stay clean for next weekend.

Heading out to comedy tonight. JoeThinksforhimself is getting his NYC present tonight. FINALLY. That’s my real excitement for the evening! I love giving gifts!

Anyways, thought I’d let you know that even in the midst of being productive, I seem to find ways to sabotage myself! HA!

Grocery Shopping–check
oil change/tire rotation–check
drive to frontier pick up pumpkins/picture/odds and ends–check
garden ridge for frame–check
unload groceries and put away–check
decorate front with hay bale and pumpkins–check
start laundry/sheets–check
start dishwasher–check
take break with computer/weeds disc 2/pretzel bits and cold sprite–CHECK

left to do

fold clothes
sprinkle smelly stuff and vaccume
dust and clean ceiling fans
put pics in frame
take shower and go to comedy

I have slept almost consistently for the last 48 hours. It was a hard week of working, staying out past my bedtime, Fall Festing with the family and friends…FLOP.

Fall Fest was great. There really is nothing better than congregating around an open fire with friends and roasting things on sticks. Better than anything! So that was good.

We took family photos outside before things got started. You guys, I cannot WAIT to see them. We were under a big tree, by the creek, with the sun behind us, it was gorgeous! We’ll see the proofs later this week.

So today, after sleeping all of yesterday (seriously, got up at noon ran an errand or two, napped from 3 till 6, then watched tv till around 9 then fell asleep again on the couch and woke up at 3am and went to the bed) today consists of laundry, housecleaning, grocery shopping, oil change in the car, watching season one of Weeds…lots to be done.

Happy Monday, ya’ll. Huzzuah and Halakaleem!