Coming and Going

I’ve been meeting myself coming and going this week. I’ve been remiss about posting because if I am in front of the computer I have only enough brain juice to sit and drool on facebook for a few minutes before I pass out.

Work has picked up the last part of the week, which is great! Rehearsal was good Thursday night, and quite possibly a train wreck last night. I realize Friday night rehearsals are sometimes wonky. everyone is tired. Most everyone gets to sleep in today. Whatever. The actor opposite me, in all my scenes…that looks at my forehead. GAH!!!! it’s rough guys. The director was about to lose his mind last night. Learn the lines. stick to the blocking. quit making excuses for everything that isn’t right. “you didn’t tell me to move there. You told me, you didn’t tell me….” that kind of thing. The girl is so intent on adding emotional arbitrary noises that she doesnt do the lines. There is a moment in our second scene that calls for a big meltdown on my part. Sally Field-esque. It calls for her to hand me one thing then stand there until I’m finished and then help me off the stage. No words. no nothing. I was about three seconds from opening that emotional window last night when she starts with the patting and the it’s okay’s and the i’ll be alright’s….and I hadn’t even given her anything to motivate that yet!!!

SLAM!!

there goes the window. and it smooth pissed me off. and I said something to her off stage, “you cannot talk to me during that scene. you can NOT talk to me in that moment. once the window is opened, I dont care if you recite the gettysburg address, but keep it quiet until then.”

She just looked at me like I was a stupid bitch and made a commment about how the character WOULD certainly react like that and basically said, I could lump it.

STEAM! anger,combined with exhaustion combined with a SEVERELY low level of gin in my diet these last weeks…oh lawd it was a miracle I got thru it.

We went out for drinks after. The director and stage mgr and artistic director, myself and two of the “kid” actors. I really am enjoying getting to know them. The girl that plays my daughter is sweet, and she’s having the same problems with her acting partner. Slow cues. Paraphrasing. GAK!!!!! It was nice to vent and know that our director sees that issue as well and to know that we will WORK IT next week.

We had a big ole salon meeting yesterday. “THEY” are really working on making our company a team. Really working to figure out that missing ingredient in ourselves, in our salon, in our company, that is keeping us from blowing the top off of this market. I respect that. In this economy, our owners haven’t had a paycheck in some months. it’s tight. and scary. But our salon gets new clients daily. NEW ones. And they, for some reason, aren’t being kept. or we’re losing our regular ones. I know I’ve lost about a handfull of clients since things got tight. I can give you names, faces, jobs, their husbands jobs…and I know it’s because of the money. People are going longer and longer w/o a visit. I think that by the time we see this economy change for the better, there’s going to be a lot of LONG hair walking around out there. Anyways, one of the ways the company is changing is by setting up a system, according to the time we’ve been an employee, to how many new clients we get a month. average. Some girls, who are new, still fresh, trying to build a business, are getting 10 a month. Some girls, who’ve been there 5, 6, 7 years already, are getting 2 or 3. I’m slated to get 4. I think it’s totally fair. It’ll average out differently, as any plans do, but if I get and KEEP four new clients a month….that’s good. It’s also up to me to get really energized about getting referrals. I have referral cards that give 10 dollars off to not only the new client, but to the person who sent them. yes, that comes out of my paycheck, but I think it’s worth it if I get new business.

We’re also all reading this book by John Maxwell, WINNING WITH PEOPLE. We’ve got set meeting times to discuss and work thru whatever the plan is within this book and work to apply it to ourselves and to our business. this is right up my ally. Yeah, the meeting times are sometimes at 8am and that totally sucks. But I read a lot and at the end of the day, if this makes us better? Bravo, then. Everyone at the table last night oooh’d and ahhhhh’d about this guy. They knew him and just went on and on and on. We will see. I prolly won’t be reading much of squat till I get this play opened…

today is a full day. After work, I must to the game store and buy Wonderboy his birthday Wii gun, then home to feed the livestock, gather clothing (which will prolly be dirty and have to be washed at my sisser’s house!) fill up Bella, and get on the road to Arkansas. I don’t know if I’m doing hair, can’t imagine them not needing it, so will bring supplies for the visit. Hair tonight, Party tomorrow, home monday morning. must get my own laundry done. I have rehearsal monday night…did i tell you the redhead loaned me a voice recorder so I taped last nights scenes and plan on listening to them on the drive. it’ll help get the lines in my brain.

There’s a lot going on. With everyone. B and ScottyRingo have had some drama and some body parts removed since I’ve seen them. Joe is being swollowed by the movie, which means he’s ass deep in happy. Gert is working on getting packed for her big move. I’m desperate for face time with these folks. MGirl is about two weeks into the no smoking thing and doing perfectly! I think…I think I could sleep for a hundred years if I could just go back to the bed.

Happy Saturday kids! Enjoy yours and I’ll see ya back here whenever. may try to get Wonderboy off the computer and post while there but chances of me parting the Red Sea are more likely.

Huh?

Man, I’m sleepy. I snoozed thru my alarm, so the coffee time is less this morning. Rehearsals are going well. We were off book for act 1 last night, and while it wasn’t a smooth seemless ride, it wasn’t the Titanic either. This is good. Act 2…eh. that’s the focus today and tomorrow.

The best part of last night? The costumer brought in three of mine for to try on…remember kids. This show BEGINS in 1964 and proceeds to the early 90’s. I have some BEAUTIFUL double knit polyester ensembles. and I had forgotten how streachy that stuff is! Really, quite comfortable!!! My wigs aren’t in yet, but I get to be a redhead. AND ALL THE ANGLES SING….

so things are cookin right along.

My car is ready today! this afternoon actually, so MGirl and I are going to take back my rental this morning, then I have to work (thank goodness) and I’ll hopefully have someone run me by after work to pick up Bella. Scratch free, new windshielded Bella! Woo Hoo!!!

It’s going to be in the 80’s here today. I’m thinking it’s a flip flop/t-shirt/pit-tail kind of day. Yep yep!

what kind of day is it for you?

Anxious?

I’m anxious today. Trying to do a checklist on what could be the reason…I got my house appraised Monday, and thanks to some kamakazee housecleaning and help from Mgirl, it looked really spic and span when the guy came. I haven’t heard what it appraised for, but I forked over the 400 bucks it cost to get it done. I’m still really walking in faith that this is the right thing to be doing. I have no idea the interest rate, or the financail gain I’m going to get from this endeavor. We’ll see.

Rehearsal was good last night. We got act 2 blocked. We’re all together from here on out and that gives me comfort. Running and working scenes. Tonight we’re off book on act 1 and for the most part, I feel good about it. I have to say a prayer in Hebrew…or is it Yiddish…as a good Jew I should know the difference. I’ll google it. Anyways, it’s hard. I’ve got it written out phonetically, and it’s such a gutteral language, lots of sounds in back of the throat like your hocking up a loogie. gag. Anyways, I am going to really work hard and that first night without holding a book is like showing up at work naked. GAK!!!!!!!

I got my dentist bill paid off yesterday. THANK THE GOOD LORD! nuff said about that. I hate owing people. especially when my friends are the ones that are billing me. just a gross feeling.

My car is in the shop. She got crunched about a year ago, and I’ve just been driving her that way. My windshield cracked too so all of that is getting fixed. I’m driving a rental…a little Mazda 5. it’s a cross between an suv and a mini van. it’s got the captains chairs all in it and the back doors are the sliding ones. reminds me of the tour van Chrome and I drove all over Hells’ Half Acre. but smaller. It’s fine.

So maybe all of that is the anxious that I feel today. It’s going to get to 71 today, so that makes me just giddy. looks like mid 80’s friday and saturday! Halakaleem!!!

I’m heading to Arkansas this weekend. Wonderboy is having his birthday party a week early so that I can be present. It was no skin off of his nose though…means getting presents early AND on the day! kid is no fool. I’m going to shop for him a something for the Wii. A gun perhaps? some sort of something. I haven’t been there since the holidays, it’ll be good to see everyone. Wonderbaby is probably eating steak and heading to college by now. Hopefully he and I will have some quality bonding time.

Is there anything else? I dunno….have a great wednesday everybody! I’m gonna fix myself some breakfast and get this day started!.

One Minute At A Time

Collectively they will add up to my Fifteen Minues Of Fame…courtesy of my boys over at 796 Entertainment. I’ve been getting shout outs by the fist full….(dirty!)
Go and have a little listen. Scroll back thru the archives. There’s some good stuff here…Tiny Dancers was one of my favorites. G Whiz was probably the best.

I’m running late today. Will post more of my ridiculous life after rehearsal.

Happy Tuesday!

Be more SPECIFIC…

Had a blast last night with GirlKris and SHicks2 and some theatre folk. First time to actually get to hang out after a show with this group so I was happy. We went to the homobar and watched some pretty bad drag, laughed and had some cold beers. After the show was over, we hopped over to the BIGGAYBAR. It has a big dance club and it was pretty crowded, so we motored into the cowboy bar. I like it better in there. All of these bars used to be my accounts when I worked the beer, so I know my way around them and hey, they are my chosen people so totally at home.

At the first bar, I got to meet the cutest red headed boy…he’s in the show. (Almost, Maine…not the drag show) I’d seen him around the theatre and when we worked the phones during begging week he was there…so cute. tall. lanky. the most beautiful curly red hair I’ve ever seen…

married.
and to a really nice girl, apparently. Not that it would make a difference if it was a really bitchy girl, I gave up married men for Lent, but still. sigh.

tall glass of the perfectly flavored Kool-Aid on a hot, dry, deserted desert day…

I feel I need to be more specific to the universe when asking for my glass of Kool Aid. I’d like to have exactly what I mentioned, only single. and I need him not to have problems with emotions. Let’s just both be able to say..ok? ok. OK!!!!

back to the gay cowboy bar. I was singing to the music, we were all laughing and I was telling the story of bringing Dionysas to this bar to prove that there are homo cowboys who two step. He’d just seen Happy Texas and was just bumfuzzled at the whole concept. That was the weekend of the BigGayBowling tourney and the place was packed. I had THE BEST dances with this accountant from Austin. He spun me all over that dance floor, swish, swish swish….(that’s the sound of our dancing. not his walk.) We just had the best time. He said growing up gay in Texas, dot dot dot. Well one does not grow up gay in Texas. One plays straight, so he learned to dance with women. He didn’t like dancing with men…anyways I was retelling this story thinking, I’d like to dance when…

“would you like to dance?”

(i believe I’ve told you how I will dance with anyone who asks me. I think it’s a difficult thing to ask someone to dance and the possibility of rejection is so great…so 9 times out of 10 I say yes.)

And we spun and danced and spun and danced and it was a little funky at first but we just kind of found our groove and laughed.

I said,

“Thanks for the dance, Betty.”

And she thanked me as well. I went back to my group thinking…

I have GOT to be more specific.

BE.
MORE.
SPECIFIC!!!

Did You Hear That?

Did you?
Hear that?

THAT noise…in between all of the gnashing of teeth, pay of bills, learning of lines, eating of food…that noise.

Did you hear that?

THAT one thing…the sound that came after the nostril breathing and the giving up and the giving in and the praying and the meditating. . .

there it is.

right THERE!

did you HEAR it?

DID YOU?

that was the sound of my re-fi guy saying it’s a go. we’re going to close at the end of March…

window closed.


door opened.

Closed Window…Open Door

Well I got my final answer on the windows yesterday.
No financing available to me.
I am solid, one hundred percent sure that it’s because with all of the attempts to refi the house, my credit has been pulled too many times and is reflecting that.

Alas…I’m relieved. I had a very solid solid thought pop into my head after I got the call that said, “call Public Supply” and they were on my list to call but I canceled them after the Champion guys came. So…I’m just going to call. Get an estimate. Maybe only do one or two windows…

Rehearsal was good last night. We worked act one pretty hard, so I feel better. The girl working with me looks at my forehead though. Never in my eyes. wierd. Sigh. it’s just wierd. But I feel good about our scenes, I think once we get off book (next wednesday for act one) we’ll be cooking!

I did about 10 minutes of meditation/prayer time this morning…It’s hard. I will take all of the tips for the meditation I can get, thank you very much! But, no soda for me, and man I wanted a Sprite Zero before rehearsal last night. 39 more days…

ok, hopefully my day will be full of working…yesterday was NOT full of the working however I gained a new client!

Tonight, I’m going to a fundraiser starring all my funny ha ha friends. Should be a fun time.

Oh happy humping day to you! Remember…closed windows…mean something else is opening around the corner that you cannot see. it’s all good…

Lent

Enjoyed a Fat Tuesday yesterday with crawfish, corn, taters and spicy sausage! MMMM MMM good! today is the first day of Lent. I’m giving up soda and committing to at least 15 minutes a day of meditations/prayer/solace. As well as bulimia, marriage and world peace. I’m giving that up as well.

Speaking of marriage, man I had a crazy dream last night. I dreamed I got back together with my ex-husband. seriously. it was all very detailed and crazed. we got re-married.

cue vomit.

but it felt good…in the dream…it felt right and fine. and I think that stems from conversations with Joe and MGirl last night about letting go of some stuff, and how when one really truthfully does that, how good it feels.

Giving up, letting go…tis the season.
have you given anything up, or let go of anything lately?

Fat Weekend…

so.
i feel the need to confess. Fat Tuesday is upon us, and yes I will be partaking in some crawfish and cold beer to celebrate…however I started early with my Fat Weekend. Everything I ate this weekend, for every single meal, was either fast food or restaraunt. And it was neither healthy or low fat. At All.

It’s been awhile since I’ve binged that hard and no holds barred…but you know what? It felt good and my body is now craving healthy food. I’ve done my grocery stop and bought provisions for the week. I’ve roasted a big pan of veggies and am doing an acorn squash too. Also making a healthy meatloaf for the week. I’ve got salad made up and ready to grab…should be a good week. I haven’t called the Y to check on a membership yet, but that’s on my list to do. Mostly I’ve been lazy and watching season one of Battlestar Galactica. It’s my latest addiction.

SO…how has your Monday been? What’s your week look like? I have something every single weeknight and then starting next week I’ll be at the theatre every night until the show opens! Here we go! I don’t feel to badly about being lazy today. I’m not going to have another one until mid-April!

also…there was no closing on the house today. I feel like that is not going to happen. And you know what? ok. fine. There is another plan that includes this house and my finances and I’m ready to follow that…once I know what the hell it is. Also still no word on the financing for the windows. So…whatever! That’s my attitude!

what.
ever.

I got my refund check today. It’s now time to begin my list. Get the car fixed, pay off some debt to my dentist and bonusmom, pay off my lowes account. Wahoo!!! We’ll see how the rest of this shakes out and maybe I’ll get a fence…or look into a new/used computer.

maybe.