I saw the story about the guy giving the bottle of water yesterday, and was so touched...then I saw this...and it makes me really happy. I wanted you to be happy too!

missed posting yesterday, it was a weird day. we had some major weather here in the Plains. Lots of tornados, bam bam ba blam! one after another. pretty bad. took the back end off of the chuck e cheese here in the city! I was just there on Saturday!! crazy. The bands that went through last night were especially devistating, resulting in deaths I believe.

You always know if it was bad or not if Matt Lauer talks about you in the morning! But today is clear. Breezy and wet, but clear. So there’s that.

I’ve been suffering from some sneezing and allergy bits, but whatever. It’s pseudo spring in Ok, it’s part of the routine!

Monday night we had our first read thru for the play. The woman who plays opposite me, whom I’m never without onstage…up and quit. Just didn’t show up and when called, said she quit. GAH. so our director has some idea of another actor. last night we were supposed to work, but cancelled due to weather. We’re off all next week because the director teaches at the arts high school here and they are putting up their musical. This means…ohhhhh two weeks LESS of rehearsal times. GAH!!! Nerve wracking. seriously. But I’m not going to borrow trouble. It will all work out. I’m just ready to get into this, and it looks like we’re another two weeks out of doing that, so its frustrating.

talked to my dad last night about some work on the house. I’m about to leave you to google insulation installation. I’m going to add more insulation in the attic to help with the bills. I also have a window guy coming out next week to give me an estimate…here’s what I’m thinking about that. It’s President’s Day, so big sale. If I can get a really good deal, buy two get one free kind of thing, and the price is affordable, then I may just get all 8 replaced and either use the money from my escrow account that I get back upon closing the re-fi, or just do the twelve months no interest/payments and use the tax rebate next year to pay it off. I think doing those two things will make amazing differences in the heating/air bills this year. Old houses just not that efficient. so, lot’s of possibilities going on there.

That’s it from here. I’m off to research insulation. Happy Humping Day!

How was your weekend??? It was just fine here, the weather has made everyone happy, we got some storms around 4 this morning so the cats are clean and the outside is fresh! Ahhhhh! Don’t get me wrong. I’ve lived in this state long enough to know not to bust out the flip flops just yet. We still have about 5 or 6 weeks of it left, but whatever. We get these intermittent doses that keep us alive and I’ll take everyone of them!

The week finished up nice and busy for me. Also a factor in my happy mental state. The redhead and I went up to Guthrie for a play and had just a great night. When we got there, three of our other friends showed up so we all hung out and were funny together. The girl we went to see that was in the play met up with us after for more laughs and a drink or two. It was fabulous!

Yesterday was another good one for me. I overslept so did not get to inspect the other church I wanted to, however I watched a little GodTV and listened to words that hit the target and carried me thru, so it was ok! I had play committee meeting and we SELECTED OUR 2010 SEASON!!!…all but one show. We are still STILL hung up on a show that will serve as our student matinee. GAH. We cannot scrap this idea because we get grant money from the state arts as well as the fact that we are courting our future audiences! There’s a lot tied into this so we have to figure it out. In the past, we’ve done Picnic (classic piece/author) The Chosen (historical) this year its my show dealing with civil rights…we walk the line of overdone (Anne Frank) poorly done elsewhere (Shakespeare) dried up and boring (check out the reading lists for high schools) and dang it. We are stuck. We’re taking two weeks to look around, grab scripts and read…someone suggested Copenhagen, or Frost/Nixon, or Rock & Roll by Stoppard, and those are great suggestions but who knows if we can do them. Everybody send any suggestions if you have them!

I’m meeting with my re-fi guy at 11 today, then home for some tidying up, perhaps a bit of laundry. I have about 4 dollars to my name, which could get me into the cheap afternoon movie should I choose…who knows where the day will take me. Tonight is my first read-thru/rehearsal with the cast. I’m super excited. Details on that later!

Happy Monday everyone! MUAH!

So last night?

SO MUCH FUN!!! And somewhat boring. But SO MUCH FUN!!!

Gert had to work at the War Bar, which is great. More beans for the pot. So Joe and I trolled out to the tv station around 5:45 and met some of my people from the theatre. The whole night was C2 volunteers, but I knew a handful of them. Saw some people I’d done shows with in the past, met some new people. Joe knew people from previous jobs and current film gigs. We laughed. We got a nice (free) meal of bbq from a local restaurant. There was endless snacks and sodas. Pretzels and goldfish and m&m’s…yeah. I felt crappy for that. gah.

Anyways, turns out a Friday night isn’t a high rollin time during the Festival 09. I took maybe 3 or 4 calls, but whatever. It was giving back to a group that gave us all Sesame Street and Electric Company and Mr. Rogers. It was a great way to spend a Friday night and not spend one thin dime. I am totally doing it next year, and Joe is going to get the Film Council to do a night. WE LOVE PBS!!!

Today is my Friday, and I have a decent book of appointments and it’s gonna be in the mid 70’s here. BEAUTIFUL. Tonight is Barefoot In The Park with the redhead, with a 4yr old birthday party squeezed in there somewhere!!!

I hope you have a great Saturday. I hope you’re experiencing the Thaw and just a titch of our Spring Awakening.

MUAH!

Oh GLORIOUS DAY!!!! it’s in the upper 70’s here today thru Sunday, finishing off my weekend with thunderstorms! Perfection. I got up this morning and went for a brisk walk in my neighborhood…a little breezy but man I felt good about some fresh air and sunshine! Coffee and morning readings…I’ve postponed my Artist’s Way…anyone else surprised by that??? I have a script to memorize…and while I may work the morning pages and exercises to some extent, my focus will be my LINES! My LINES!!!

Tonight, for those in the local area, or for those of you that can get OETA/PBS look for me and Joe and Gert on the telly answering phones! Yep! ON THE TV! We’ll be volunteering for Carpenter Square and what a neat experience! stories about that to come for sure! Tomorrow is working, and JackRyders birthday party at Chuck E Cheese. I’ll run by for an hour or so after work. This is PseudoSister2’s first child. Summer time playmate to Wonderboy. Anyways, after that the redhead and I are going to see a play at The Pollard. Sunday is trying out another church and then play committee and theatre stuff…I hope that somewhere in that I can get outside again.

I’ve got an update on the re-fi situation. My new guy is AMAZING. he emailed me a Good Faith Estimate within 24 hours of my first conversation with him. I’ve got my fabulous Kath on the project as advisor and I feel good about it. Hopefully this will work out in the right time and I can get a really crazy low interest rate and all will be well. happily ever after.

Ok, the weather has made even the cats crazy. Sambo and Kikimama are chasing around in and out like they are possessed by demons. Good. Grief.

Anyone else have a problem with the woman who has 14 children thru in vitro??? WHO’S PAYING FOR THAT?!?!?! I’ve had family and friends have to give up on that because of the expense…gah. fourteen. and she is younger than I am.

Ok. Not going to end on a bla note, today is CHRIS’S BIRTHDAY!!!!! I love this man. We go back to the USAO college days, on the stage, off the stage, drinking coffee, English classes, writing lab…he and his wife are two of my favorite humans on the planet. Chris, have a fabulous day dear! Many blessings on you and yours!

it feels as if no matter how we try, how we grow and learn, it’s always two steps forward-five steps back. GAH. How? Why? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY????

I was talking to BoobVicki at work yesterday when she came in for her appointment, and her husband got laid off. Everybody is really struggling. I know we all are. Chrome’s dodging cutbacks, Gert and Joe are hanging on and hanging out, I’m living on the corner of Wanna Lick-Psyche and Skin of My Teeth…and I get really disappointed. and angry and frustrated and I know you’ve heard it all before so just skim if you want but this is where it comes out…

I get really angry that I’m doing this alone. And not that just being a part of a pair I would necessarily have a) extra income or b) handy abilities around the house or c) omniscient powers but I would have someone to bounce things off of. Do you think? Should we try? how do you think we could? —and please don’t think I’m mourning for Ex-Him or…well, any member of the Ex-Him club whatsoever. I do not mourn the loss of any of them in my life. They are gone for a reason and it’s the right one. I just always saw my life…differently.

And before you stick your fist down your throat to induce vomiting, let me just follow that up with this little jewel…maybe different isn’t so bad. Maybe this is exactly what my life was supposed to look like, despite free will and choices and jumping on the tour with the circus…maybe this is EXACTLY what I was supposed to be doing at 38 years old. And maybe this is what it will look like for the long road. Slowly…slowly that nugget of knowledge is taking root in my heart…and growing stronger. Validity. Fine. I’m fine.

Sometimes I think I’m completely bi polar, and the manic phase just lasts longer than the others…because when I am knee deep in the Bleagh it’s really really difficult to crawl out. And I’ve been there for a few weeks now. Sigh. But there is light. There just is. And for whatever the reason, I’ve been inching towards it bit by bit. So that’s something to report.

Another report from the bright side, through the wonders of Facebook, I’ve found an old friend. A friend from the Wyoming Summers. He’s a brilliant human, full of life and will laugh harder at a good joke than anyone I know. He’s also a great writer, and his topics are usually food, wine, cooking, life, love, liberty and the pursuit of happiness…check him out

Did you catch last nights ep of LIFE? slurp. still wiping the drool off my chin. Lawd lawd lawd, that’s one big hangin man. sigh.

Huzzuah and Halakaleem and let’s not forget though the redheads are my kryptonite…my heart belongs to George. Everyone who remembers that raise your hand…

Had a few minor heart attacks this morning, but I got lots figured out. Main thing is, my bills are paid and I have a teensy amount as a cushion till I start making tips this week. Main thing is I fired my re-fi guy and got myself a new one.

When I left Ty’s office last week, he said to me, next week you will hear form me every day. I’ll put you at the top of my priority list and you will hear from me one way or another everyday next week.

Ok.

Today is Wednesday and no word…so I called. And he had the nerve to get snarky with me!!! “Oh you’re right. I did say that. I’ll make it a point to call you everyday at 10:30”

Forget that shit. I called my friend Caro and got her guy and called him and told Ty to just throw everything away. I wasn’t working with him. EVER. What a fuckstick. Just because I don’t have a 150,000 house doesn’t mean I’m worthless! GAH.

so whatever. I’m trying not to be pissed. I’m trying not to think about the week after Christmas when I called him, and all this time has been wasted…no. not wasted. everything it the right time…I know. I know. I’m working on blessing it and letting it go.

It helped that I was busy today. Tomorrow I will go get my cosmotology license renewed and weigh in, I have a few appointments and the weather is on an upswing here. We’re to hit the 70’s by the weekend so maybe that will help business. Life is good.

and Life, a new episode is a mere 7 minutes away!!!

LIFE RETURNS TO THE SMALL SCREEN TONIGHT!!!

just when you thought it was time to crawl under the covers and sign off for good…the universe gives us new eps of my second favorite redhead!!!

Set the DVR’s people…it’s gonna be a good one!

I’m feeling a little better. My mental health is always helped out by getting bills paid. I’m still pretty tight and everything I make this week will have to go into the bank to pay a few bills that are coming due but so far…so good. Breathing easier.

My mood is also helped out by not having to drink crappy coffee this morning. I threw in another buck and bought some Folgiers beans yesterday. Mmm Mmm Good. I didn’t do my morning pages yesterday morning. and had a sense of guilt all day over it. Methinks the Artist’s Way is supposed to NOT increase the guilt however…it’s me. I did write this morning. I haven’t done any exercises yet, but plan to do some homework tonight.

My rehearsals start next Monday!!! WOO HOOOO!!! Our cast is complete and I’m really excited to get to know everybody. This week is shaping up to be a good one, Biggest Loser tonight, I am bound and determined to get some working out time in at the gym and some yoga on the dvd. Friday is my volunteer work! All I can think of is the Friends ep when Joey was answering phones on tv! Saturday I’m going to see a play with the redhead. Sunday is committee meeting…vroom vroom!!! there goes week one of February!

Oh, MGirl has alerted me to the fact that Soapnet is having a contest for best worst date stories. I’m heading over to their website to see if my experiences last year qualify me!

Happy happy day!

Yesterday turned fun, despite my Knots. At play selection, we decided on a few shows, three for sure I think. We gathered more scripts and are meeting again next week. We’ve got to decide and I think next week, or maybe the week after is it for that! I love getting back into this scene. I enjoy these people in my life. I enjoy being a PART of something! This Friday night, I’m going to volunteer for C2 and man the phones at our PBS station during Begging Week! How fun will that be?!?!?! I’m excited about doing it, and I think Gert and Joe are along for the ride as well. Anyone else wanna? We are desperate for volunteers! Let me know.

The SuperBowl party at the bar was fun. I won 25 bucks on gambling squares and won 2nd place in the chili cookoff and a t-shirt. My winnings allowed me to not spend one single dime on my tab!!! I was home by 11ish and crashed.

Today was fairly productive. MGirl and I went and got our taxes done. She’s got a woman in Yukon who has done hers forever so I tagged along. This is the first year I got to itemize, and am getting a nice little chunk back. It cost me 200 bucks though. GULP! Another bummer, I don’t’ qualify for the First Time Homeowner Credit of 7500 bucks. The dates, arbitrary as they are are from April 8, 2008 thru July 1 2009. I closed on my house St Patricks Day of 08. FLOP. Ok, well fine. I was really worried about the payback anyway, however I’d already kind of gotten my head wrapped around new windows and a fence and some insulation in the attic….sigh. Money is just tough ya’ll. I did get payed today, and tried to pay bills online, and it’s jacked up so will try it again later. GAH…I’m really working on being responsible and thrifty and conscious of spending…it’s starting to wear me out. I need a week on the beach.

I’ve done laundry, and clean sheets and made the bed and groceries for the week and washed my car, so today feels accomplished. I’m going to veg out until comedy tonight. How was your Monday? Here’s to a new week, a new month!