Did the BF Workout again last night. Feels good. More Jabber-Walking. There was lots to discuss as Gert got a JOB!!! I’m not going to spill too many of the details here, as it really is her story to tell, her time to shine. But I’m just soooo proud of her! Lot’s of new beginnings!

So we talked about that, talked about what that will mean for our working out schedule. We’re really up in the air at this point until she gets in there and get’s her schedule. I’m not worried about it a bit. Everything will fall into place. In that vein, I have lots of good feelings for PseudoSis1, who’s got some fabulous opportunities on the verge in her life…feels like it’s the time for things to fall into place.

I sent my escrow payment in the mail this morning! Huzzuah! Halakaleem! I’m happy for that…

along with that payment went my chance to attend BlogHer in NYC this summer with Kizz and Cindy. I had hoped, hoped, had a smidge of a hope that things would fall into place. Even though tickets were sold out, bla bla bla. Well, I got the email yesterday. The waiting list had opened up. I had 72 hours. Well shitthebed. Sorry, I just mailed my ticket to the escrow account. Ohhhhhhhh frack.

I was pretty sad, and still am, but I have a peace about this trip…and my lack of participation in it. I think Cindy is supposed to have this time along in NYC. First trip. Time with Chrome. Hope to hook her up with a meet and greet with Kizz. The two of them, and their cameras? Awesome.

I started shopping around for some new gym shoes. I need some. The ones I have now are hand me downs from my sis. I looked at two places yesterday and while there were good ones at decent prices I didn’t love the way they looked. Of course, gym shoes in a size 10 are rarely nice to look at. And I have this thing…I noticed it during the run of the show this past spring. It’s on my right food, right above my heel. and it’s a big…knot…of sorts. It hurts. I try to stretch it every day…that seems to help. Anyways, I know I need to get that looked at…oy.

Made a big batch of tabouli last night and bought some veggie and chicken kababs for the grill…turns out? that little grill is over it. Dunzo. I thought it was lack of juice, but I refilled the tank two weeks ago. When I was with Ex-Him, we got that grill from his kid’s then boyfriend, now husband. At his apartment complex, the dude next door moved out and left it. It’s little. And cheap. And was free. And has served me well these last 6 or so years. But damn. Another thing broken????

Embrace the Shitstorm!!!

Tonight is dinner with parental units. Mom and Burl are coming in to decorate the graves a week early so I will get to see them tonight, then bang their hair tomorrow, so that will be awesome. I have a bar shift tomorrow night that for once, will be saved not for the escrow account! Ha!!! (shoes? computer? c/card debt? grill? what else?)

This weekend it’s going to be sunny! 80’s! Beautiful! I’m going to re-plant my garden. Re-work some of my plants. Hope for the best back there that it will dry out…lord but it’s muddy back there. gah.

Ok kids. I’m refilling my coffee and gearing up for a day! Happy Friday ya’ll.

Yesterday marked the beginning of Operation Best Friend Workout. We met in the middle…about 15/20 minutes drive for us from either way and jumped in. The gym is one that many of our mutual friends go to, and it’s nice. Unassuming. No meat market vibe. Small enough but pleanty of equipment. PseudoSis2 got us week passes to try it but I think we’re both ready to join. We just did about 45 minutes of cardio, but ya know what? It was more than we did the day/week/month before so we felt good. Jabber-walking. Mouths flapping, getting caught up on life…we’re at a deficit and just gobbling up time with each other. It’s a good thing…we both want to live long long lives, full of experiences and travel to fun places. NOLA. Italy. Wine Country. And we don’t want to do it fat and unhealthy with bad skin.

DO OVER.

My garden sustained muy damago from Sunday’s hail storm. LAWD, but we are under seige by roofing companies in The Villiage…I have a STACK of cupons and flyers and door knob hanging thingys…sheesh. Anywoo, Bonusmom brought me some new babies. New peppers. New tomato and one GINORMOUS tomato that she dug out of her own garden to bring to me. Please, God, please let me help it to live and produce!

DO OVER.

Today’s weather? Stormy. Rainy. I’ve moved the plants to safety. But this afternoon, around 4pm things are allegedly going to get bad again. Storms. Hail. Tornados possible.

sigh.

DO OVER…hoping for an easy ride though.

I’m off to get ready. I have class this morning and trying to wait for my pants to dry…otherwise it’s a last minute costume change for me. Hope you Normals are enjoying a fabulous Hump Day. Almost over, for ya! It’s kind of moved fast, eh? yes.

Huzzuah and Halakaleem and I love George Clooney.

Misti, in the time that it takes you to read this short Note, you could have planted a new image in your mind (anything you like, ideally with an emotional charge); I could have reacted (realigning planets, people, and the sort), and the floodgates would’ve begun trembling violently as we’d have been drawn infinitely closer to manifesting the vision you’d chosen.

Fortunately, there’s still time.

Hot dog,
The Universe

Todays NFTU is pretty spot on, eh?

I’m focusing on the new week. I’ve put some love back into this house with deep cleaning, and rearranging my bedroom and hanging up clothes and filing all the papers in the office and lighting some beautiful candles over the weekend. (ps everyone needs to go the bath and bodyworks and buy the margarita and the blue sea breeze candle and burn them at the same time. holy mental vacay batman!)

I am fat.

I just am. All of the everything with money and work and the house…emotional eating. And we all know how it affects every single part of my psyche. But I am making plans…Gert and I are working on a way to just meet in the middle and start working out together. Yes its a little bit of a drive, but we need to do this. Long, healthy lives to enjoy each other and laugh…that’s the goal. Like any addict, admitting it is the first step. SO I tell you. I am fat. and feel worthless and disgusting. But I’m going to change that. and it will be ok.

I’ve done well with the $ thing…I’m ready to pay off my escrow account and bring it up to date. That’s a load off. Just in time to deal with the deductible for my house insurance…that hail storm? Well. The insurance adjuster is coming to look at the roof and see what kind of damage it did. It’ll be later in the week as there are so many others in much worse shape than I…but we’ll see.

I’m manifesting clients this week! Lots of hair to bang! And some fun and laughter! And hopefully I can make some people feel really good about their hair and about themselves this week. That’s the most important part.

Ok kids…I’ma get some coffee and have a little bit of quiet time before I start this day. I hope yours is beautiful. Hail free!

The sky fell down. The wind blew something fierce. The power went away for about four hours. Spring time in Oklahoma!

Sad to say my garden suffered. But I will replant! I’ve called the insurance to send someone to look at my roof and for damage…funny though, that I was going to shop around today. And now? I dont want to have a claim on my record…nor do I want to shell out 970 bucks deductible…i dont have it to shell. All my extra is going to the escrow account to bring it up to date by the end of the month. sigh.

EMBRACE THE SHITSTORM!

This is my NEW motto for the year! Try new things? Pish posh. That theme is SOOO last…month. From here on out? I’m EMBRACING THE SHITSTORM!!!

It’s gonna be a wild, stinky ride, but hey…what else did I have scheduled???

Tennis Ball to Golfball size PIECES OF ICE FALLING FROM THE SKY!!!!!!

THAT IS MUD. AND ICE. AND THE REMAINS OF MY GARDEN…cue funeral music here. Oh and look at the umbrella!

do you see the dent in the top of my grill??? Damn!!!

RIP Flamingo Cliff or Norm…whoever you were.

Remember yesterday when I spoke of new guttering and perhaps it will get finished and then I can start working in the front yard with landscaping?

He FINISHED IT!!!

I got the voicemail saying “this is Mr. Handyman, and your guttering is finished. it’s 95 dollars.” (which I thought was an outrageous price. I’ve priced guttering. for the one piece it’s about 35 bucks. so his labor charge was batshit high, but ok.)

I get home and look up, all excited like?

He put it in the WRONG PLACE. He removed my guttering that I had up. And granted. It was old. And needed cleaning out. But it was WORKING. He replaced the perfectly fine but dirty guttering with the new stuff…and the place on the house that NEEDED IT?

still bare.

I called him and he just kind of mumbled and when I asked where the old guttering was, he responded with “in your trash can” and I said well, I still need guttering, and he said well, I’ll get to it when I can.
Forget it. Don’t bother. I don’t have an extra hundred bucks to throw around for some shitty attitude. OVER IT. I’ll figure something else out.

Defeat. Just defeat.

I am starting to hate this house.

I just cried and laid on the couch and watched The September Issue and an ep of Dollhouse then went to bed at 9pm.

So. Deep Breath.

I have some new guttering. That’s good. Today is a brand new day. That’s a relief! I have a bar shift tonight, which will pay for the new misplaced guttering. That’s a blessing.

Come Monday, I will deal with the other guttering. I will call around and check on other home insurance options to perhaps lower my payment…I have a sinking feeling though…But NO! We’re staying focused and positive! If I crumble now…you may have to admit me to the nervous hospital. I’ll be the one in the corner eating my hair and rocking back and forth muttering the words guttering…guttering…guttering…guttering.

Yesterday was a busy one. Forever grateful for that…things are coming around this week for everyone, it seems. We had more storms last night, still raining here this morning, in fact. Should be doing this all weekend “They” say. So ok. The mud lawn and the garden are getting good drinks. A nice plus. Also, no crazy ass dreams lasts night. Just some sleep.

My handy man is allegedly putting my guttering up today. I say allegedly because he kind of runs on his own little timeline. It’s the last bit that I must have done before I can start making my front flowerbed. Right now, it’s just a pool of water. So, that’s something good. Hopefully it will happen, or perhaps next week.

I got a chunk of $ paid on my computer yesterday, as well as paid off my debt for a bridal shower that I hosted. (I couldnt attend which sucked, but it was for a special family friend so who cares!) Getting that in the mail felt good. I’m over half way on saving for my escrow payment, so that’s feeling better…Today I call the insurance. It’s time to figure some stuff out. I”m pretty sure I am leaving the company I’ve been with since 15 1/2 and started driving. I’ve held on out of loyalty for two years despite everyone saying “you’re paying too much for home insurance” After this last escrow debacle…well I have a client who works for S. Farm and even he said, “Shelter is beating us by 500 bucks. Shop around” Which is what I intend to do. Hopefully that will help a bunch.

Got my June schedule for the bartending gig. Three out of the four weekends, so that’s awesome. I’m really hoping to be able to sock all that extra towards debt and get stuff regulated before the holidays so I can have a bit of a nest egg again.

Anyways..what else? I have GOT to get to the vet and buy the flea/tick stuff for the cats. What with the advent of more outside time, we’ve got scratching going on. . .

Ok I’m to get some breakfast and some coffee. Hoping for another good day…for you as well!

It’s SPRING in Oklahoma. I say SPRING because really. This season is unlike any other we have. Thunderstorms. Rain. Hail. Crazy ass winds. oh yeah, and something like 28 tornados in one day.
Just another day in the season. One gets used to it, really. Our tv gets commandeered by the weather men every single night so that when you go to watch your DVR’d eps of Big Bang Theory, you forget it’s recorded and totally get hopped up on another storm coming through…that is if you even get to see Big Bang Theory. Generally you’re just S.O.L.

We had thunderstorms last night about 3am. We were expecting them. We knew they were coming. I was excited for the break in humidity and for the yards and garden and plants and flowers to all get a free drink. I was sleeping….ok. pretty good actually when the storms came through, then I woke up when a soaking wet kitty climbed aborad and snuggled at my feet…when I went back to sleep though?

I dreamed of a leaking roof. A roof that began to crumble just as I saw the water rise outside my window…brown ugly water that rose waaaaaaaaaay up into the window level and then I felt my house begin to float. Off of the ground. and I was screaming and I was crying and I found everybody inside safe and the cats were inside safe but we were in a house/boat and the rain and thunder and then it settled down…and it looked as if the roof over my bedroom was just chomped off by a big monster…

I called a client friend of mine who was counseling me on housing. Selling houses. Reducing payments. Insurance. (he’s in real estate) —(ok. the call was still in my dream. the counseling really did happen during his appointment yesterday) and he hooks me up with a roofer who says he will really try to charge me less than 5000.00–

all the while I’m making calls trying to get a roof over our heads, apparently, I’m touring again. So…there is singing and dancing.

I woke up with my fists clenched so tight I could have knocked somebody out.

then I leaned down and hugged that little black kitty what was sleeping on my feet. he was soft because of the rain water. that was nice.

I only had one appointment yesterday, and the phones weren’t ringing, and the general mood was bla…So I came home. The plumbers came and fixed my hose hook up faucet thingy in the front yard. It wasn’t bad, 75 bucks. I was a dumbass and left the hose on during the winter. I know better. I know do unhook them…gah.

I then took myself to the bed. Slept till after 7pm. Went back to bed at 11 and slept till after 7. I actually feel human this morning, and since I dont go in untill noon, I can have just a little respite with coffee and relaxing. Nice. I’m grateful for the time.

OKC is on a mandatory water ban. No watering the yard. No sprinklers. The tornados jacked everything up earlier. So many people are still without power, and still so many with destruction. This week looks to hold more storms but mostly in the western part of the state. Rain though…which will be good for the lawn and garden.

That’s about it for me. I’m just working. Sleeping. Taking care of bills and house and bills and house. I dream of a vacation.

Yesterday was mean. Big fat meanie fat ugly mean yucky day. But here’s where we stand.

Roomie and I are fine and dandy. We really do have excellent communication. He’s got such a good heart and it really is in the right place. So. I write to you this morning after a blissful night’s sleep. Life is much better on that front.

Escrow. Fucking Escrow. Stupid Life Stuff. I HATE not knowing this stuff…seriously. and WHO should have told me? When was this information supposed to get passed on to me? GAH.

I have to cough up 600 bucks to bring my escrow account up to date.
My house payment will then only go up 43 bucks. This I can handle.
I am going to get with my insurance and go over my policy and see if we can pare that down a bit.

and all I really want is to play in the dirt.
or go on a vacation to a beach and unwind.
or have some new scissors for work.
or use that $ to pay down my computer and build a Pergola.
or….

ok. quit bitching about Life. Time to saddle up and ride.

I worked a wedding last night and the long day of standing is wearing on my body today. Creak. Groan. Snap. Ugh. But it’s a relatively light day then on to the ballpark downtown for Bedlam Baseball with the PseudoSisters et. al.

we’ll end on a positive note:

Yesterday Dad came an sprigged in some bermuda sod in my yard! and while he found out that my front yard hose spout thingy has a bad leak and must be replaced (of course it does. and there is no reason to believe this wont be an invasive intense repair job rather than just an unscrew and replace kind of job) my back yard is ready to be watered in and fertalized and let’s GROW!!! The garden is looking lovely too by the way!

ok. I’m off to work. Last bit of the day a big fat HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY NOODLE, DAUGHTER OF GERT!
12 years ago today AuntChi called me. I was sitting in a room, tiny little bitty room in Goshen, Indiana packed and surrounded by my stuff that I was loading into my car preparing for the trek home. She said, “we have a baby! she’s perfect!” and we cried and we laughed and I packed my stuff and headed back to Oklahoma. Two days, two flat tires and a rescue by Mom and Bonusdad somewhere up the turnpike and I got home and went to meet this beautiful creature. She is growing into the most fabulous of all Tweens…my best friend is an amazing mother. What a journey!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOODLE!!!