my roommate is causing me to not sleep.
and apparently my house payment went up by 92.64 and I didn’t know it.

i’m in the middle of a full blown melt down.
happy friday.

Hug Someone Today.

I’m still catching up on rest…without much luck last night as I tossed and turned and was hot..about 1 am I finally got up and turned on the a/c and took a pill. I’m still tired but thankfully today is my late day! Business has slacked off a bit this week but I’m busy tonight so that’s good.

Just got off the phone with my Dad. He’s making a trip down and bringing me some grass seed and sod bits for the yard. We’re going to get this thing back to green one bit at a time. The garden looks good…my Christmas Beans have yet to show signs of life but everything else is really blooming…makes me happy. I planted some beautiful gerber daisys and purple petunias in containers for the back. Some caladiums for the front. so pretty. Makes me happy every morning to have my coffee and go out and water them.

I have zero plans to celebrate Cinco de Mayo. In fact, I’m heading out to Batshitcrazytown to help Gert with her massive load of STUFF TO DO this week. Hopefully I can give more than just moral support and actually do something.

What else people? Seems I have a lot of voices rolling around talking to me nonstop but nothing I feel like spitting out here. Still mulling a bunch of stuff over…mostly just trying to really manage my bills and money and save what’s left over and rebuild a nestegg for the lean times…but that’s nothing new. It seems like it’s taking over my brain waves though.

Ok peeps. Happy Cinco. Happy Humping Day. Happy Happy.

I’ve made it to Monday…

Thank you GOD for letting me live till today!

Hectic is merely a silly little word to describe the last week or so, and without going into diary detail I will just say that this weekend was work work work work.  I did manage to squeeze in some facetime with Hawk and Ringo on Saturday night…and oh how blessed it was! I went over after work, for once listening to Hawk when she said DONT BRING ANYTHING, and just kind of collapsed on her couch while we got caught up on just…being together. Ringo and PB his daughter rounded out our little party and we laughed and sang and ate a delicious meal cooked and cleaned up by Ringo (by that time Hawk and I were teaching PB the wonders of singing into our microphone finger to Lady Antebellum so we didn’t even bother to help him!)

I slept on their couch as the combination of beers, laughter,  and just pure relaxation made it stupid for me to even think about driving home that night. We woke up, had coffee, more laughs and I was headed home to rest a bit before my bartending gig last night.

It was bliss.

Today is a pretty relaxing day. I’m about to head out to run errands…bank, fill my grill tank with propane, car gas, Sam’s, buy more flowers somewhere and come home to plant them…I’ve a few things in the house that need cleaned, but for the most part? relaxing and just being me today.

THAT is bliss.

Happy Monday ya’ll

eleven hours.

ten clients.

more money in one day than I’ve ever made. ever.

Mgirl back in emergency…but not admitted. perhaps anxiety? we dont know yet.

feet hurting.

two more days at the salon.

bartending tomorrow night.

garage sale stuff loaded and delivered tonight and still need to do more tomorrow.

brightest spot in my day? 7am reading Elephantsoap dot com.

sweet sweet sweet.

i’d have more to say if my brain weren’t filled with rocks and my feet didn’t feel like fireballs.

Mgirl is better…she’s still having pain occasionally, but I sat with her for a few hours yesterday morning and we chatted and laughed about stupid people who can only think about small things, and cried about beautiful giving people who are warriors for her in prayer, in active fundraising, in support for her new lifestyle…it was good. I took my computer up and she got online a little bit. She’s still in for a few more days while the docs monitor her thinning bloods. We went over all of the changes in her upcoming life, for the next six months. No alcohol. No greens, (which sucks for summertime eating) no asparagus, no (insert every one of her favorite summer foods here) because of it’s Vitamin K content. Vitamin K? wha? yup. it’s the vity that clots your bloods. So…we’ll just figure it out. Right? right.

This past week was one of the more exhausting ones I’ve lived through. Work has become super busy. I’m grateful. Hospital at night. I’m grateful it’s not a funeral home. Bartending on the weekend. I’m grateful. Sunday morning was a 6:30 wakeup and then two to three hours of shouting and cheering for our marathon runners. I’m so grateful. It’s such an amazing experience every single year. M’Lynn and I every year side by side just laughing and crying. Chris and Cindy joined us and I think they were happy that they did. I saw a lot of my friends runing, which just makes me ever so proud!

We all four ate breakfast, and talked about new things (Froast has been sighted in OKC! woo hoo!!!) and plans (gardens!) and then we split up still cheering each other on! YOU GOT THIS! YOU CAN DO IT! WAY TO GO! (we almost cheered on our waitress…)

I ran home and showered and then met Gert and Josie at church. WHAT? I know. I’ve been looking for one to attend and I’ve heard a lot of buzz about this particular flavor, so we tried. I’ve more on that in another post. But it was beautiful to just spend time with G & J and hold hands and soak up some positive love and encouragement to get us thru the week.

I finally got home and pretty much slept till Monday.

Without going into a full list of what Monday was, I planted my garden with the help of Bonusmom’s compost and encouragement. I got more plants in the dirt. It was a good afternoon! Our Co-Op bounty day was yesterday, so we had a fabulous meal and called it a night.

This week we’re getting ready for our fundraising garage sale on Saturday. I bartend Friday and Sunday, with the sale/work/and a bridal shower on Saturday. Sheesh…send up a prayer.

MGirl is sick. There’s a lot of details about how she got to this point in the journey, ambulance rides, hour long waits in an emergency room, phone calls, family drama, catscans…but push come to shove and the bottom line is she has what the doctors feel strongly is a brain clot. I mean, a blood clot in her brain area. And they believe it’s torn…There have been catscans, andiagrams, MRI’s. We’ll know more today, but she’s in ICU at Mercy Hospital here in OKC.

We’re all pulling together to visit, and take things. Her parents drove in at 3am from Tulsa so they’re here. It’s really really really scary. I’ve been playing go-between as the information center, which I am HAPPY to do. But my phone has just blown smooth up. And thank goodness for social networking and technology…it’s just kind of nuts.

I’ve been kind of anti-social for awhile now, and that’s fine, I do that every so often. But seeing my friend so tiny and pale in the ICU with all the beeps and the bops and the icks…I am SO GRATEFUL that she is where she is under constant supervision. I am so grateful that we live in such an age of advanced medicine. She’s pretty scared and freaked out about how her life will have to be lived from this point on…lots of change coming her way and…oh yea…she doesn’t have insurance.

We’re planning to help out with that and I’ll give details here when they come…but for the love…do NOT get me started on the insurance…

She’s going to be ok. Thank GOD, she didn’t die. We are reminded today how fragile life is, and how it can turn on a dime…let’s all of us life today with a full heart and no matter how shitty it is remember that we could just as easily lose it…

I’m grateful for you. All of you. I’m not going to talk about how my feet are tired and how busy this week has been and how it’s going to be nuts thru Monday…I’m just going to say HAPPY FRIDAY!!!

go getcha a cuppa joe and CHEERS!

This is the third morning I’ve been up and at-em to attend a class…Vidal Sassoon was here Monday and Tuesday, and while I didn’t have the thousand plus dollars to attend the four day intense hands-on stuff, I did fork over 60 bucks to watch demo’s for two days. This morning is our salon education…sigh. It’s good. I need motivation. . . because all I want to do is stay in bed. Seriously. My give-a-shit is so low right now…

At bible study last night, we’re starting a new study and I’m excited about it but nothing really to report yet, all the girls were talking about summer trips. Costa Rica. Hawaii and California. Mission trip to Brazil. Beach. Chicago…every single girl. So I kind of got depressed about that. I’m traveling to Canadian County to work every weekend, and while I’m super duper ridiculous happy about that job…I would love a week in NYC. or Chicago. Even to take a class for work! Or just a week on the beach? sigh. just to relax..but maybe next year. Maybe. I’m grateful and oh so thankful that I had the $ to pay for the plumbing issues, and that we an all flush in peace…but still.

just a wee little pity party. and next year perhaps a really great vacation. a belated 40th birthday present to myself…perhaps.

so.

brush it off. figure it out. move right along. look forward to some fun with friends this summer, cookouts and maybe some progress in the backyard.

right now, I’ve gotta giddyup and get my learning brain on and get this day started.

I hung out with one of my favorite humans last night for the first time in what seems like years…we watched some comedy then changed locations and flapped our jaws until well past midnight…and while I’m puffy eyed and yawny this morning, I wouldn’t change it for anything. It’s so nice to just re-fill on that kind of friendship, no holds barred, no boundries, full blown honest just BAM lay it out there kind of conversation.

One of my other friends fell down and went boom this week. Ole Chris a.k.a. the Shawn While of Scooter Riding decided to have a little adventure with the pavement and his scooter and won several broken ribs for his performance. Scary shit, my friends. I’m sooooo happy that he and the scooter are ok, and even though he hurts when he breathes in and breathes out…it’s gonna be ok.

Work has been ridiculously slow this week. Seriously. and I was gone two days of the pay period, which is fine, totally worth it for my trip last week. It’s just nuts at how wonky business is…but it’s not just me. There’s lots of girls who are sitting around reading. OH MY GOD I’m about 50 pages away from finishing book 7 of the Outlander series.

Woof.

I’ve read nothing but this series, back to back, for about 6 months now. Holy Moly. I’m sad to see it go (book 8 is being written but it takes the author 3 years to finish one of these books) but I’m excited to get on with reading other titles…woof.

Bought my garden yesterday at Sams. It’s a little raised bed, and even though the forecast calls for rain, I’m determined to get it up and planted this weekend.

I’m grateful for all these things, friends, books, gardens…all pieces to my puzzle…intricate chapters to my own story. Grateful Friday, indeed.

This is the second morning that I’ve had a live freakin bird in my house when I wake up.

A few days ago, I’d heard some scuffling in the night. I did what I normally do and closed my door and wished it well…fully expecting to clean it up (or for Austin to clean it up) the next morning. Well, I ease out, setting my internal gross out level to “steady” and I find nothing! Nada! Zip. Bupkiss. I’m over in the corner of my dining room area and all of a sudden there’s movement above my head and something drizzling down the mirror….gearghhhhh….bleah.

there’s a bird sitting on the mirror. pooping. and proceeds to flying in my living room. I immediatly open the front and back doors and go lock myself in the bathroom lest it starts to beat down on me, and I just don’t want to watch the cats try to eat it…but Kikimama successfully chases it out of the house into the backyard and Whew! Done.

This morning, I stumble in and feed the cats. Sammy is talking, meowing which should clue me in because he’s the strong silent type. I open the moist and go to throw the containers in the trash and HOLY SHIT THERE’S A BIRD SITTING ON THE FLOOR BEHIND THE TRASH CAN!!! Seriously. Kikimama just goes over and sits nose to beak with this thing. Yes. I took pictures. As I type, said bird has a jacked up wing, and is hanging out over by the buffett/lamp area. I’m just hoping it’ll hop out one of the doors…

I guess we’re not killing things in this house anymore. And while I applaud the cat’s newfound sense of civility…COME ON GUYS!!!

The backyard is leveled and ready to get grass!!! and a garden!!! I’m so happy with this and soooo happy that this job was a hired one. Watching the three guys work yesterday…ugh. That’s some hard work. Harder work than I want to do! So now we’re onto the next steps! I’m going to go get a little seed and some fertalizer because it’s supposed to rain this weekend….

That’s about it from here…Happy Happy Happy Day to you all. May it be blessed and bird-free.