Are You Worried?

These guys were indited yesterday on charges of planning to harm a president. How many in the class believe we will see more of this because of the color of his skin? How many of you have heard people in your state make comments about such a thing happening, with a smile on their face?

Are you worried?

Any more than your worried about any other time in history, or any other president?

I wonder.

I’ve perused several of our NaBloPoMo participants, finally getting to send a comment here and there and it seems that everyone is saying the same thing. Whew! and trying to process their emotions and get them into posts, none of which is happening quickly. I think we are all in that boat.

Last night was a quiet one for me, sans my NBC station and it felt pretty good. Looks like tonight will be the same. Fall weather blew in last night, borderline chilly, so I’m making some pasta sauce out of the homegrown veggies that I’d put up this summer. Tomorrow night begins the weekend of birthday festivities. I’m finally taking myself to see Doubt at Carpenter Square.

I had plans last week with two “friends”…granted all week long these plans had been really tentative. But on Thursday night, I got confirmations from BOTH the New Girl and the Redhead. Well the next day at work, the New Girl text that she got tickets to the Hitchcock thing at the OKC Philharmonic and was it ok if she bailed as they were gift tickets and for that one night only. Sure. Fine. No worries. It is Halloween afterall and the Redhead is still going so whatever. Later that day, when I sent a text to him to get a for sure and call about tickets, he tells me that New Girl had asked HIM to the Philharmonic, and he “really was interested in that too, so he was going to just flip a coin”

Fuck.
That.

There is a line, that is easy to cross in this situation. One that casts me in the role of whiney, pouty, girl left out of the fun. In reality, the role I played was this:

Anger can be a very motivating emotion.
But it’s one that I have a hard time hanging onto these days, after living in full blown rage for so many years with Ex-Him.

I was hurt. I am hurt. and I went over and over and over the details, and even removing all the extraneous emotions and feelings and putting it in the best possible scenario…it was a shitty thing to do to a friend.

But I’m getting over it. and the Redhead has heard my voice and heard my anger. New Girl, well she knows I”m pissed. She knows things are not the same as they were before.

SO…..anyways, tomorrow I’m taking myself to see the show that I was supposed to see last weekend. Then hanging out with friends and watching some football on Saturday night for my birthday. Sunday I think we have a play committee meeting. I want some more football, maybe a movie, something. Oh, maybe brunch! Monday is the actual birthday and I’m going to Eischens for chicken and okra and beer. Sweet mother but it’s good.

Excited to be on the precipice of the fun. Wish you were all here to play with me! In the meantime, have a fabulous day! for the Normals, you got one more day kids! For the Kizz’s this is it! For the ones like me…we’re at the halfway point! we can make it!

Yes. We. Can.