R-O-L-A-I-D-S

relief came yesterday.
relief from the game that I’ve been playing all year long, does he, doesn’t he, will he, won’t we?

GAH.

So sick of the brain time spent. And again, fine with how it turned out. There was a bit of a come-to-Jesus via texting/emailing, and going to bed last night I wondered if I’d wake up feeling different. I don’t.I am relieved to be relieved of this. Done. Done. Done.

Cue music: Stupid For You by Marie Digby
Roll credits: many thanks to the supporting cast of all of you
Camera pans to final scene of a couple leaving by boat, into the setting sun.
Oh, and that guy? George Clooney.
I’m the blonde in the boat. (LOOK HOW LONG MY HAIR IS!)
Aaaaaaaaaand scene.

So that’s about all I want to say (for now) about this. But I would like to direct your attention to the comments section of Woot! Woot!

THAT is some serious support~! (and I don’t really think I slammmed anyone into any lockers, but there is ample want to throw New Girl somewhere tonight. I don’t know if she’s showing up. I don’t care. It’s my party and everyone else can frack off.)

Got a full book today, hooray!!! Gonna make some money and get to hang out with friends tonight! brunch in the morning with C2Supercouple, Eischens on Monday. Weight Watchers on Thursday. FOR REALS!!!

For whatever reasons, the answers I’ve been praying for came this week. Lose ends have been tidied and chapters have been closed. Believe me I don’t understand timing and missed windows and fear anymore than you do. Powerful motivators in our lives. But I believe that things do happen for a reason. I am going to believe that these answers, though they are NOT the one’s in MY movie, came at the right time. I get to start my do-over on Monday with a clean slate. Heart. Mind. Clean Slate.

I appreciate that, Universe. Props to you.