This day has been a mixed blessing.
My book filled right up with clients, thankfully. It was good. And fun. and I am grateful for that. all of it.
WIN!
I’ve had some struggles today, trying to find my PLACE with this. This ending of a relationship. I think that everyone needs to do their very best to understand that I am sad. I am sad that the dream didn’t come true. There is disappointment in every space of my mind, between each thought. I enjoyed thinking about picket fences and counter tops and little league and cupcakes and living in the same zip code as my best friend again. Living out my life back in Canadian County. But it’s not going to happen on this particular ride. He and I are both disappointed. But wanting it just isn’t enough. Wanting just IS NOT enough. If it were, I’d be in Lake Como with George and you could all suck it.
I think we, he and I, deserve nay, DEMAND respect for recognizing and getting out before we dove head first into a mistake. I’ve done that before. I have walked down the aisle all tulled up like a cake topper knowing that I couldn’t see forever at the end of the walk. That will never happen again. I don’t care how good it looks on paper and I don’t care how sad you are about it and I don’t care what dreams of yours I shatter. Bare in mind? I’m shattering mine too.
But the thing with dreams? sometimes they come true.
Keep watching.
I’ll SHOW you.
Misti Ridiculous 
"Two people can be perfect for each other but if the timing's wrong it’s never going to work out. Bad timing is the reason that most normal people end up single. Weirdos and creeps are single cause they are weird and creepy but people like us are single because of bad timing." John Favreu as Adam Levy from "Love and Sex". XOXO = Hawk
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that's awesome. and totally true. thank GOD I'm not JUST weird and creepy…!love you back.
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We'll all be here for you.
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Mint juleps, hot browns, stack cakes and great hats for us all. My bet is always on you! Go Sea biscuit! Go!
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You will absolutely show us. I know you will.
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I'm proud of you.
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I would be a much more successful person person if I had even half you wisdom and courage.
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You go girl. You know your heart and have to be one of the most courageous women I know.-CHarlie Ann
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I know. I am sad too that your dreams are on hold for a while…the word describing him that you described as kind is so hard to find in any man, no baggage, child support or x's also, BUT if it was not right it was Not acceptable…Your family is dissapointed only because we know how bad you want your dream to come true. Know that we care about YOUR happiness and nothing else, picket fences and ALL. I married once because everyone thought it was the perfect match and he was NOT Catholic…I am thankful that I have my two blessings from that marriage but often wonder what would have happened if I had followed my heart…who knows……I love you and wish you a wonderful trip. Mamo
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