Coming Off Of It

Did everyone survive their weekend? Was it chock full of friends and family? Did you travel? Great food? Lazy days and long nights?

I have to say, mine was a little anticlimactic. I worked two weddings which were great. The first one was a friend of mine from college and my other friends were in attendance and it made the night just fun fun fun! The one last night was kind of a dud, but for the whole masquerade theme and the endless detail of the event, not many showed up and then they left early. The bride mandated that date as it was the couples nine year anniversary. NINE YEARS. so…that was good. the money, you know. it’s a driving force.

I did get some facetime with many, bits of time grabbed here and there. I saw Inglorious Basterds (loved it) I ate great Mexican food (loved it) I watched a ton of stuff on my new Roku thingymagig, such as This American Life (more than love it). I think it’s safe to say I had a good weekend.

but the only thing i got DONE was mowing the lawn. I feel like I should have been checking things off the list…ehhh. I don’t know. Maybe that’s just how I’m wired these days, and it’s not that I didn’t have things to do, but I just lost focus. Or lost some of that manic phase that I’ve been in lately.

I was having a conversation with the Redhead this weekend about surrounding yourself with quality people…and I spent a lot of time thinking about that. Thinking about the things I have in common with the many in my life. and I think, more importantly, the things I DON’T have in common with them. And I tend to get sooooo bunched up and try to fix, and try to help, and try to be everywhere for everyone…and frankly kids it’s just almost time to say when. And maybe I’ve been saying when in my own way for a few months now…I’m not going out much, but mostly because I’m working.

This will sound trite, and maybe like a cop out, but kid’s, I’m closing in on 40 years old. I can smell it. . . and the closer I get, the more it smells like fresh sheets that have been sun-dried. There are many many many people that I hang out with that are light years younger than I. In some friendships it never shows. In some of them, however, it’s quite evident. And it makes sense, gives reason to some of my disenchantment. What exactly do I have in common with someone 12 years younger than I? Well, quite a bit or nothing at all.

I’m not saying that everyone that isn’t exactly my age is no longer my friend or that I have nothing in common with them. Not saying that at all. That’s just stupid, so if you’re reading this and happen to be younger than I, just stop it. chill out.

What I am saying, is that the things I’m focused on, and working towards and want and need are NOT necessarily the things that someone in their mid-20’s is focused on, working towards, wants or needs. and that’s ok. But I’m going to quit cirque-de-solei-ing myself to try to make that so. and I’m going to quit feeling guilty about not having so much in common with them and feeling like I need to have that. and it’s not just the age difference, it’s life differences. I’ve looked around lately and thought, what the hell am I doing here? Other than knowing this person or that person, what do I have in common with anyone here? yes, I’m friendly and enjoy people, yes I’m the “recruiter” or whatever…sometimes though….Gah. I don’t even know if this is making sense.

Do you think that if W got up and told the kids in our school system to work hard, that the world would have it’s collective tampon in crooked?

yeah, me neither.

I’m off for a walk.

Post Script:
a long walk cleared my head. Seriously. The above is really just some jumble dee gook that’s in my head. I’m not going to edit, as my knee jerk instinct tells me to. I’m going to just leave it out there. I stand by the fact that we are only as good as those we surround ourselves by. I end this post by saying that I’m pretty damned good. Because ALL of my friends do make me better. and for that I’m eternally grateful!

Now, to the bank. to the work. to the vet (Kikimama has a hurt foot) back to the work then to dinner tonight with Bonusmom and TexasCousin

3 thoughts on “Coming Off Of It

  1. You take in the energy of those around you. If you're happy and truly enjoy your time with those friends, then by golly, enjoy it! We love you.


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