Serenity Now

Since about two this morning, I’ve been awake.

Worrying.

My air conditioner, which has been running off and on since a) we’ve hit the 80’s and b) I have a boarder the first few days of the week, started kicking off and on about every 30-60 seconds. It’ll run, and cool, but shut off after about a minute. That cannot be good.

SO, I got up and turned it off. And worried about how much it will cost to repair it. And worried about this being the summer it must be replaced. I worried about who would loan me that money…family? bank? I tossed and I turned and while I was worrying, why not throw in the dishwasher that isn’t working. . . again.

It’s clogged. And I fear burnt up. But I don’t know. I don’t know what to do about it. I’ve done everything I can do.

I have a phone call in to my plumber/savior/friend. He’s yet to get back with me, and that was at 4pm yesterday afternoon.

He just text me back that he’s crazy busy and wont be by until late tonight or tomorrow. but at least he’s got me on the list

The thing is, I’m just trying to keep it in perspective. I can’t do anything about these two things. I have a test today at one, and must finish/start/finish the paper due tomorrow. I’m really trying to remember to focus my energy on things that I can do something about.

I said something to the same effect on FB this morning and was met with an immediate stream of supportive comments. That helped so much! The breeze is lovely today, I’ve re-opened windows and have the fans running. It’s fine. I haven’t cooked a damned thing in days. My eating has consisted of cardboard containers, drive through windows, reheated leftovers and paper plates. (dont judge me) So the dishwasher situation can just sit there for a day or so. I do have my Lowes credit card paid off so if I have to get a new one…again…IF I get a new one…again…I can.

I have two finals and a class starting on Monday. I have clients that need attention, brides that need beers served this weekend…THAT’s what I’m focusing on.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.


3 thoughts on “Serenity Now

  1. One day at a time, sweet Jesus…..I don’t know where that came from, but I hear ya. It’s scary when the home starts to fall apart. The Lowes card could be used for a new air conditioner. You could probably do with out a dishwasher, but you can not go without air in that state.

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