1) my phone got stolen.
2.)my phone is being returned. I hope to get it today. It’s a long story and I’ll write about it eventually.
3.) my taxes are finished and I completed my FAFSA, though not on my computer because I’m using the most current OS from Apple and apparently they aren’t compatible yet. I’m still absolutely nervous that I waited too late and won’t get awarded any money. But I’ve done everything I can and hopefully when school begins in three weeks I will get to begin with it.
4.) I’m pretty sure that my 4.0 GPA went to shit this summer with this last class. I’m tired. It was online and those classes do nothing for me and I got lazy. I’m trying to look at it as a pass. Less Pressure to be Perfect. I wrote it on the wall.
5.) I started my Dream Wall. I’m liking it.
6.) Trish is leaving next week. I cant even—
7.) Haven’t done much in the way of searching for a therapist/psychiatrist but have been getting everything from eyerolls, to “that never helps” to suggestions of names. There has been one that has bubbled to the top that I’m going to look into at some point.
8.) It’s too hot to do anything. Certainly too hot to cook. I’m over it.
9.) The stress of all of it was just almost too much this week. I’m just praying for the financial aid to come through.
10.) Five years ago today I said, “enough.” I had stayed awake all night waiting for ExHim to come home, as I had done every night for four years previous. I was done. I left. I have been single for five years. Sometimes I wonder if that’s it. If this is the path I’m on forever. If it’s a choice between that and this…I fucking chose this time and time again.