Kikimama Rides Again

I was in a pretty awful place when Kiki found me. I was in a dishonest, mentally abusive relationship with a raging alcoholic and scrambling to find something stable to hold on to, trying fervently to find a way to fix things and make life better.

I had wanted animals, wanted a dog or a cat and had been for several years shut down on that. Hell no we aren’t having any animals would be the reply. I accepted it, until the day I didn’t.

Out on my patio was this sweet little black and white kitty and this big hulky blackish grey kitty. I decided that I would have them. I began to feed them. I would get close enough to pet them. My allergies would explode, my breathing would be in crisis and my eyes would be damned near swollen shut but by God, I wanted these cats. I needed something good to focus on.

It was a matter of weeks that we soon discovered Kiki would be Kikimama. She gave birth to a gorgeous litter and that Christmas, there were 7 cats racing through my house. Tell ME I can’t have an animal. Go ahead.

Kikimama has never been the big game hunter that her son and Baby Daddy are. She is more of the cricket, moth and cicada variety. She loves to hold them in her mouth and feel the vibrations. Really. Who can blame her on that, right? She has a penchant for the freshest of water and is happiest curled up on the bathroom sink. She sleeps at the head of the bed, sometimes on my head, my sneezes be damned. 


always with the fresh water
always with the fresh water

She has survived the cancer once.

We had the tumor removed last year. And it returned.With a vengeance. Fucking cancer.

Today, we say goodbye to the sweet girl. She has fought the good fight long enough. It is time to let her go, and deliver her from this bullshit pain that she is in.

There are moths and crickets and the loveliest of vibrating bugs awaiting on the other side.

Godspeed sweet girl.

16 thoughts on “Kikimama Rides Again

  1. Okay, I understand better now why you want it to be yesterday again and as shitty as my yesterday was, I will go back to yesterday just for you to have one more day with your kitty. {hugs}


  2. She will be w/my petite girl, Harley… her pseudo-sis, and they will trade cancer stories. They will look down on us and recall all the wonderful times spent being our sweet little girls. Love you!


  3. Its the last final kindness we can do to repay the devotion they give us. Love is a verb and you are doing it right now…


  4. Misti – I read this news while in Colorado and I just thought “damn!” My heart hurt, but I know there is some comfort knowing she is no longer suffering. So glad she was appointed to be with you many years ago, to love you, restore hope, and be your friend. I’m praying that sweet memories will come back to you at just the right times and that she will also grace your dreams when you need her encouragement most. She is so beautiful. Love those fur babies SO much.


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