Well, now I’ve got that song in my brain this morning!

This is IT kiddos! We’ve reached it! This is CHRISTMAS WEEK! I’m working at the salon today, I actually have about 3 or so appointments booked with room for several more if need be. Having one day off is kind of a bitch, but I have five days off later in the week so…it’ll be fine and dandy!

Strange, though being one of the Normals this morning.

Watching the Today show, talking to Kizz through her winter storm this weekend…it’s stirring! the holiday spirit is stirring in me! I’m getting super excited to see the family…and we’ve got some winter weather coming our way this week. I don’t know about the driving conditions, but I can drive in just about anything. I’ve sent mom the link to preparing the turkey…we’re having our turkey dinner Christmas Eve night (YUMMMMM!!!) so I will get there in time to help with that. Just like we used to…all of us in the kitchen laughing and cooking.

This is the week to fly home, drive somewhere, get on a bus and head north…Dionysas is traveling, Kizz and Chrome too. Gert is home! Cant wait for facetime with her!!!

It’s a season of blessings. It’s a week of love and light and prayer and thankfulness.

I’m thankful to get to work today. I’m thankful for having a place to go. Did anyone watch 60 minutes last night? Wilmington Ohio…man oh man. I just cried. I’m doing just fine kids…compared to. I’m doing just fine and dandy like a hard candy Christmas.

Even the Universe says so!

When driving down the road of life, Zelda, rarely do you know how good you have it, until you see it in the rear-view mirror.

Which is not to suggest that you should look back now, but to remind you that where you are today is more awesome and amazing than you probably realize.

10-4,
The Universe

So that’s what it feels like to be busy at work!!! I’m thankful for that!

So I can only hope and pray that this continues through the next few months, which are traditionally very slow at work. It’ll be ok. But the last week has been awesome. I’m amazed and the numbers I’m pulling in daily, and just think that if I was that busy every day? wow. I’d be helping YOU out…crossing fingers. Holding on.

I have just a two more gifts to purchase and will celebrate the fact that I can do so…by doing so!

I’m sucked into the show Californication. Anyone else watching? It’s very smartly written, well acted…I’m impressed. I’ve powered through the first two seasons in a minimal amount of time…me likey!!!

Went to the theatre last night with my new theatre going peeps. We’ve decided it’s “our thing”…college friends. it’s so nice to get to spend time, to TAKE the time to reconnect!

ok kiddos…I gotta get into that shower. I really need to scrub and shave my legs. it’s winter scaley ick time…and THAT is the image I will leave you with.

Happy Saturday!

What with the squirrel carcass issues, and the refusal to use the litter box and the complete and utter destruction of the office, and the vet bills…I do enjoy these fool beings. I do. Happy Love Thursday.

My brain has felt a bit empty lately. I can come over and tell you what I’ve done the night before, what I cooked for dinner, how my day at work went…but it all seems negative. Bla Bla Bla Fishcakes. I know we’ve all got shit this season. Some of us are terminally unemployed and facing extinction. Some of us are breaking up with partners who we thought we would marry. Some of us are burying family members and dealing with the repercusions of that. Some of us are feeling extremely alone and sad. Some of us are worried. Just worried, about all of us who are going through all the shit.

If only it were as easy as Martha’s crafting a wreath on the Today show. A little modge podge, a little hot glue, throw on some glitter and VOILA!!!

We’re what 9 days away from the Big One? and after that just a sneeze away from a clean slate. Fresh start. I love January 1st. It might be my favorite day of the year. (well it’s close. I do love July 4th. and my Birthday. And the day before Thanksgiving…) So with all the horrible this year, recession-wise, the good news is WE HAVE ALMOST MADE IT!!!

So today, I say to you my faithful readers, that I am going to make it. WE are going to make it. And through all the juggling of schedules we will get some facetime. We will get to have heart to hearts. It will happen. You…my family. I know you’ll only be here for a few days, and I will have to be gone for some of those days, but we will connect. We will have some fun. We will refill and recharge for the next year. And that, THAT, is the sentiment I leave you with. It actually may be as easy as some hot glue and glitter…

it just may be…

DONE:

insulation installed, check.
another dead squirrel, check.
hot water heater adjusted, check.
only one appointment on my book today, the last day of the pay period, check.
season one of Californication watched, check.

TO DO:
grocery store for the smallest of provisions
finish book club book
finish reading scripts for sunday’s meeting
go by theatre and get script and start working lines
get hot water heater cover for insulation
pray for clients and enough. i just need enough.

Tonight is our company Christmas Party.

I’m not excited about finding something to wear. But it will be a decent night, I’m not planning on staying out late. The insulation guys come tomorrow morning and I don’t want to feel bad.

It’s actualy in the 60s here today, so I’ve got the doors open and am airing out the house. it’s was getting a little catty in here…I need to get up and dyson and clean a little but I’m on the couch watching UP.

have you seen it?

If you are one of those readers that never clicks the youtubes and watches…today is the day that you should do it. My FB friends sent me some strength in the form of this one today and then I found the other.

say what you want about Starbucks. I like their coffee. And now, I LOVE their commercials!

Man oh man. I didn’t even that the strength to post yesterday…sigh. I’d better get some coffee before I dive it.

SO..Yesterday was a brand new day. Mental health-wise, spiritually, I just kind of shook it off and charged in yesterday and I was happy and proud of myself for being able to do so. We got to work early to do the group photo and yes. My book was clear until like 4pm. I went with PseudoSis2 and developed photos and got coffee and hummed that one line of Cross Canadian Ragweed’s song that’d been rolling around in my brain all morning. Back at work and HALLA!!! Appointments! The wife of a guy I graduated with, who I’ve gotten to know over the summer and just adore. It was fun! I had a new client who had requested an upper level stylist for cut and color…

long story short, she is a head case. her hair is naturally curly so only she can fix it. that’s fine. people know their hair. Me, having never seen this woman (pronounced crazy bitch)before, isn’t probably going to “do” it just right the first time. well, we had a 20 minute consult. I did the hair. she had zero personality. she was rude. aloof. I could tel she was nervous. but it was a self fulfilling prophecy…she came in decided and determined to NOT like anything and for everything to go terribly wrong.

She screamed at me. she lunged forward in her chair and shoved a picture (which her fucking hair was the exact color of) in my face. I kept my cool. I did. My next client was another friend, and it was just a blow out, so I went over and transferred her to another girl, and when I was telling her…yep. just started bawling. fuckfuckfuck.

SO I went back, mixed up more stuff, did her hair a second time, shampooed it out using different stuff, gave HER the products and tools and let her style it…she asked for my manager…still hated it. She’s coming in at 8:30 today for Round Three…

I can only do what I can do. I’m trying to remain sympathetic and know that this woman clearly has more going on underneath that curly hair than her need to scream at me about hair color.

Pray for me people. I’m gonna need something to get a smile on my face…because yesterday I just wanted to eat some bleach.

HOWEVER….Ta Daaaaa!!! The day ended with a client that I adore. Sweet little pre-med college student that I’ve had since he was a freshman. we laughed. we plotted. we hugged it out. it was a great way to end a crappy day. Blessings in disguise.

THE BEST NEWS still?

I got cast in Love Song!!!! Performances are February 19 – March 13, 2010 so rehearsals will begin after the holidays which makes me soooooo happy! This is a funny role. I’m in love with the script and will get to meet some new people. Wahoo!!!

Ok. Gotta gulp more coffee and get into the shower. Miss Precious Perfect…Third time’s the charm, right?

It’s a brand new day folks! I’m up, I’m coffee filled, I’m happy…it’s a good thing. I’ve got to get to the salon early today. we’re taking the salon photo to gift to the owners for Christmas.

LT has graciously offered to take the pre-party to her house on Sunday. I gratefully accepted that offer. A LOAD off. truly.

what else? I’m THIS ClOSE to finishing book three of the Outlander Series. I gotta take a wee break I think from this reading…it’s eating me. Whole.

Today’s Note from the Universe:

Did you know, Zelda, that every time you cry there, harps go quiet here, angels stop dancing, and the stars look down in stunned silence?

Which is why we often say, “If Zelda ain’t happy, ain’t no one happy.”

You are loved,
The Universe

Maybe I am one of those people who struggle with depression during the holidays. This is a shocking thought/discovery because yes, I do have my dark days, but for the most part I am a Happy Camper. Joyful. Laughing. It’s true…but seriously. I’m struggling this season.

Ennui.
–noun
a feeling of utter weariness and discontent resulting from satiety or lack of interest; boredom: The endless lecture produced an unbearable ennui.

Yes…that’s me. But darker. All I can focus on is what I’m lacking. The voices are loud this week, folks. It’s a View Master show of what if’s and maybe’s and damnit but it’s getting to me.

Yesterday’s client list was a whopping three. One of which I had to pay for out of my own check because it was a donation. (which I do NOT mind doing at all. ever. not for this event) And I did get a future client out of the deal and it was a friend so it was lovely to have her in my chair and get to really bang out some fabulous hair on her head…sigh. I just cried on the way home. Cried during Glee. Cried during Modern Family (THESE ARE SITCOMS PEOPLE. SITUATION COMEDIES NOT DRAMAS!) Cried reading my book before I went to bed…shit fuck damn. and now that damned Hallmark commercial…GAH!

This morning, I’m better.(save the stupid commercials) I’m a little wobbly. It’s taking all I’ve got, but I’m up. I do have a few on my book today and the ones I’ve got I love, so that’ll be a bright spot!

So. Maybe it’s just a phase. Maybe it’s hormonal (but I’m not PMSing, so who knows) Maybe this is who I am at this time of year…I think I’d be better if the finances weren’t so bad. If I could buy my family at least a little something for Christmas…just listening to people talk of shopping makes me feel horrible because I can’t…

Let’s end this on a positive note before we all head for the closet with a tie around our neck.

The Missing Car Payment reappeared in my account and I promptly resent it. Check that off the list. 🙂

My insulation comes Monday. I’m beyond giddy for that. 🙂

I made enough tips yesterday to get my Secret Santa his gift! 🙂

Todays Note from the Universe is spot on. Let’s all read and focus on that:

You see, Zelda, life isn’t supposed to be all “cakewalk” and no “baking.”

Especially not for those who like to experiment, take risks, and be surprised.

Please pass the sparklers,
The Universe