I got out of bed, sleeping off and on, at 2pm today. I didn’t sleep through. Still waking up, hot, coughing, icky in general…but I think I got some rest. I just kept pushing down The List of things on my mind that I should be using this time to do, and just kept saying…rest. rest. rest. Im going to continue.
I do feel better. I’ve had some sinus meds and lots of fluids. I’m probably going to take a nap…I’ll kick it soon enough.

meanwhile…happy whatever day it is!

I have the worst sinus infection/ear ache/whole face aching thing going on right now. I had to move appointments today and stayed in the bed. I pushed to be “social” this weekend and I worked and perhaps didn’t treat my body too well…all the while I just knew I was feeling “off”…not getting good sleep. My mind is racing with chatter. I’ll take the melatonin tonight. Coughing. Throbbing. UGH.

I did the neti pot this afternoon? Man it lit me up. Painful for the first time ever. Who knows what’s going on up there.

Tomorrow I have zero appointments. Rather than worry and fret, I’m going to take this as a sign from the Universe to take a day and get some real rest.

Hope your 4th of July weekend was blissful and full of fun!

I’ve got another full day at the salon today. . . I think I broke or severely jammed my pinky toe yesterday. It’s the Ying and the Yank of life. I’m excited for the business. I’m excited that it’s another three day weekend. I love the 4th of July…

What are your plans?

He was inside when I woke up, just moseying around the house like no one was already shopping for his replacement. Little Shithead. But Yay!

 

Woke up to rolling thunder and pouring rain this morning. We’ve needed it desperately and just the break in the weather…only in the upper 90s today…is a relief.

I laid in bed with one ear open, waiting for the wet cats. Stormy always comes in during the rain. He likes to curl up on my bed and sleep it off under the ceiling fan…

This morning…only Sammy came in.

If that rainstorm didn’t bring him in…well.

Sammy’s meowing all the time. It’s a new thing he started but I think he’s lost w/o Stormy. He just walks around, lays in the kitchen just…meowing. It will break my heart if I choose to dwell on it.

I’m going to choose to believe he is hanging out inside another air conditioned house getting lots of food and love.

 

I actually did get some things accomplished yesterday…I got a toaster oven. Man. The learning curve on that thing is a little steep…burnt the bejeasus out of my morning toast. But I did make a pizza last night, and it was crisp and it did NOT heat up my house to the point of no return! SCORE! I didn’t get the high end Kitchen Aid or Cuisenart…I got the 49 dollar one and used my 20% off cupon. It toasts, broils and is a convection oven as well. I’m going to do some baked chicken tonight. GOODBYE HOT STOVE!!!

I also bought myself a clothesline, some clothespins and a little clothespin hanging bang thingymagigger. I went out and installed it and with a little trial and error figured out where to string it and hung my laundry out to dry! Sheets, summer quilts, dresses, pants! All of it! I’m quite proud of that little accomplishment. Bonusmom did one this year because her dryer went out and turns out she really liked it. And seriously. With this wind and heat…it’s foolish not to. Even though my washer and dryer are in my garage…gah. Saves on all of it.

So, I did laundry. And I lazed a bit. It was one of those days where I knew I had to work, so I was edgy. Didn’t want to over-nap, or forget my times, or run late. I knew I had an obligation so I tried to use that to get things done. GET THINGS DONE. God. Do I ever not say those words???

It’s times like this, when things are piled and I need some more hands and brain juice that I just miss my sister being close. Just a day to piddle in my house. Organize stuff or re-hang pictures. Stuff like that. I mean, I miss her all the time. All of them. But it’s when I’m there and see mom cleaning her house or doing a load of laundry or them re-doing mom’s guest room…it’d be nice to have that. I remember coming home from school and walking into our house and it’d be so clean and smell so good and we would say, “MEME WAS HERE!” she used to do some kamakazee cleaning when we were at school and it was always such a nice surprise!!!

In other news…I’m having struggles getting my Nook to connect to the internet. The wifi is jacked up. I took a poll on the FB and several others have had that issue. I think when the software update rolled out it came with a few kinks that need to be worked out. I’m going to run by the Barnes & Noble here in a minute and then I’m heading to meet Trish and lay at the pool all day.

Hope your Monday is swell. Last week of June people…what are you doing next weekend and OMG did you catch True Blood last night? Lord almighty. I love that show. It feels like summer officially, now.

slurp.

Oh the glory and bliss of slipping into cold sheets after a day in the sun. It’s just the best sleep ever. We’re setting records over here in The Plains, the most consecutive days with temps of 100 or more. The only place to be is inside in the a/c or in the water. It’s brutal. My a/c has been chugging along, fingers crossed, and we’re all cool at Brokedown Palace. But at night, I sleep with the ceiling fan and another fan blowing on me. It’s nice. Even Sammy has decided to bring his blabbermouth self inside and sleep with me this week.

Yesterday was yet another Saturday with little to no appointments. So after I finished, Lynn and I went to the pool and soaked up some (spf slathered) rays and some cold Shandies.

Home to have a little nosh of ham salad, guacamole, bousian cheese and crackers and then we feasted on last seasons True Blood in hopes to get her caught up for the new season tonight. I dozed a bit, but man. Watching it again…I’m SO READY for the show to come back! It’s the PERFECT summer tv watching indulgence!

This morning, there are things that needs be done. My house is wrecked. Clean clothes need to be put away. Sheets need changing. laundry needs to be caught up. I could use a few things from the grocery. I’ve decided to clear off my counter of all appliances and go get a toaster oven. It’s too hot in the summer to use my big oven. It heats up the house too much. I’d like to hit the hardware store and buy myself a clothesline and put it up. With 90 mph wind and 100 degree heat, there’s no reason to use my dryer. Save some mileage and electricity. I need to go get Lynns mower and mow. it’s already too hot at 10:45 am, but I can get it going tomorrow…

So yeah. There are things that needs be done. I’m going to have another cup of coffee and ignore the fact that I made the worlds worst omelette for breakfast. It was just gross. and I’m hungry. Toast that’s about it for breakfast foods…yeah. grocery store soon. I really miss my Sunday breakfasts with Chris and Cindy. I’ve been missing them terribly, but this morning it’s just more poignant.

I have a bartending gig tonight so all of this needs to get done before about 5pm. i hate having boundaries on a weekend. But I love having the money. Saving for next months’ Great Wolf vacay! I cant wait to go!!!

Yesterday about 9:30 am, my phone started blowing up with texts.

George Clooney is SINGLE again.

People from California to New York filled my Facebook wall with links to the stories. “Go get him Misti” “He’s all yours!”

I can’t tell you how it makes me feel that so many people that I love, are invested in my fantasy life! It makes me giggle. It makes me happy.

He’s the gift that keeps on giving.

 

I’ve been walking this week! Shin splints suck donkey balls…but I’ve been up and I’ve been walking. Thanks to the beautiful morning temps and Lynn! Yay for us! Feels good to move…it actually hurts…but hurts so good. Been eating better, cleaner. Nice for the mental health too.

We’re in the 99’s-100’s through next week again. Oy. Oy with the summer. Get me to the water!

Michael Phelps is about to be on the Today show. Thank you Lord. I needed that this morning.

Ive got two bartending shifts this weekend, which is good because I have once again, zero appointments this Saturday. None last week. None this week. We’re closed next week. and then the Great Wolf trip is my FULL workweek. I’m nervous as hell about money. But it’ll work out. I know it will. July will just have to be workworkwork/savesavesave.

I got enrolled in grad school this week! Got my student ID and some books and everything!!! Im so excited I could burst. I’ve started some of the reading for my Young Adult Fiction before 1980 class. Old friends…these stories.

Ok kids. I’ma leave you with one of the songs I can’t quit listening to…dedicated to my George Clooney…whom I love. Let’s rock it out today, shall we?

 

 

I think I was a little depressed yesterday. Literally…I didn’t get up off of the couch except for to go to the kitchen and put food in my mouth. About 10pm I made my bed with clean outdoor dried sheets. I cleaned the kitchen. And I went to bed.

In my facebook newsfeed, several times from completely unrelated people was a quote that I feel sure was meant for me.

“Never make someone a priority for whom you are only an option.”

Right?

Right.

I got up this morning, made my bed, threw away the bird carcass and the hairball, vacuumed the carpets, ate some breakfast, drank some coffee, and went for an hour long walk. The morning temps were human again. Lynn (bless her heart for motivating me) and I walked around the neighborhood and talked and started our mornings feeling better about life.

This is what I need.

I’m getting in the shower and driving to UCO and enrolling today.

I have zero appointments but I’m hoping people will call in.

I’ve got paperwork and money things to really deal with so if I don’t then I’m going to stay focused and get done what didn’t get done yesterday.

I’m afraid/not afraid, that I’m going to have to just go to Lowes, or WalMart or someplace and get a job. I’m not doing a good job of being self employed. I’m worried about money constantly. I just don’t know…

These are things rolling around in my mind. We’ll see how they play out.

Meanwhile…

have a beautiful day. drink some water. stay cool. think good thoughts. and don’t make someone a priority, for whom you are only an option.

we do that, don’t we?

Remember back when I was telling you about the ex husband contacting me (so strange. haven’t heard another peep out of him since) and that I would be ending the week in a place that is almost sacred…the place I was when it all really ended.

Tahlequah.

It’s a beautiful part of the world. Green. Trees. Water rivers and lakes. Beauty. Stillness.

and oh the memories.

I drove in early Saturday morning and got to hang out with Mike and met his lovely wife and child. and I love them both.

We talked. and laughed. We walked around our old stomping grounds, snuck into our old theatre that has been shut down and neglected for I don’t know how long. I had a crying spell.

I had a long conversation with a man, and finally, on my terms, put a lid on something that has been sneaking around my heart, and taking me out at the knee, since 1997.

done and done.

Then I said goodbye. and for the first time left that place without tears and thoughts of “if only. and what could have been” and drove straight home and hung out with my PseudoSisters and family and spent Father’s Day loving life.

This morning, I had a little twinge and an urge to text. But no. Not now.

The door is closed. The party’s over.

We’re moving on to the next one and leaving all of that where it needs to be.

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I’ve got some chores to do. But I’m feeling lazy. and I may nap a bit. I’m drying my sheets outside. Tonight’s sleep will be epic.

Happy Monday, Ya’ll.