Welp, this loverly weather we’ve been blessed with,71 yesterday that went away with 40 degree and winds this morning, has wrecked havoc with my sinus/allergy issues. GROSS.

I started with the ear itchy, sniff sniff drippy yesterday during a performance of High School Musical. (sidebar, I went down to watch Trisha’s youngest in her first trip to the boards. She was a Braniac in HSM. and was just fabulous! also, Trish and I had ourselves a little moment of painful longing for the kid singing the lead. It was all I could do to not leap onstage and finish singing with him…sheesh)

The itchy ear, scratchy throat, sneezy sneezy sneezy. Seriously. I took about 96 hours worth of 24hour Claritin yesterday. Also found some sinus meds. Woke up about 3 am and did the Neti Pot which did help. I have to say, this sucks. Just a general level of miserable. It does explain why I was in bed before 9pm both Friday and Saturday nights. Just sooo tired.

Tried a new church with my friend Julie yesterday. It was a flop. Totally dry and I almost fell asleep…however, we will keep looking for a place that we like. It was a start…

BIG SHOUTOUT TO Noodle, daughter of Gert, who has been cast in OUR TOWN. The community theatre in our hometown is back up and running and that kid is going to be in the premiere production! I am SO proud. So so so proud. I can’t wait to see her onstage!!!

ok kids. Happy President’s Day. Peaceout.

Celebrate people! It’s Friday for the Normals! (means nothing to me really other than Saturday is close but I still celebrate!) The world is beautiful outside! Kizz is aaaaaaaaaalllllllmmmmmmooooossssssstttttt to China after flying for eleventybillion hours. I’m booked at the salon today, bangin hair, making people feel good!

Finally got some good sleep last night, it was 80 degrees yesterday and just warm enough in the house to turn on the ceiling fan, woo hoo. That’s just perfect.

Tonight and this weekend’s plans are loose. I know I’ll workout tonight. Might go to opening night of a play, may just come home and veg. I bought my onion sets yesterday! I’m so excited! Dork, I know. I also am going to put in some radish, spinach, more brussel sprouts. We’ll see what comes up. The last time I did onions, we had a hail storm that destroyed EVERYTHING. Gah. Such is the way of the Oklahoma Gardener. It will feel good to get outside and work in the yard, get my hands in the dirt.

I’ve discovered some hysterical video on the Youtube. Please. Do yourself a favor. Watch this and have a laugh.

It’s not about falling, it’s about getting up.

I’ve been getting up a lot lately. I suppose that IS the lesson, and the victory. Getting up.

The KokoFit is working out for me. I’m excited. The script is marinating in my brain and gurgling out onto the computer bits at a time. I’m good with that. It’s all pretty raw…in great need of polishing…but it’s gurgling.

Had some nice facetime with LT last night, which always makes my heart feel better. This weather? 80 degrees today. Jeez louise. Ridiculous.

I’m going to go buy my onion sets and get them in the ground this weekend…today…tomorrow. Sometime.

I don’t have much else to report. Just focusing on getting up.

getting up.

What is happening?

Salon business is picking up.
Job 2 is busy as ever. I wish I had more hours in the day.
The new workout place is awesome. Koko Fit Club. check it out.
My food intake is first and foremost in my brain. I totally overbought on the healthy foods this week. Sheesh. I have got to stay out of Sam’s Club.
I started writing the play last night. Julie and I met for dinner at Panera and some working. She’s got the brilliant editorial brain that will lasso my shiny shiny brain. I’ve written three or four scenes. Maybe this will be fabulous!
Kizz leaves for CHINA tomorrow. Holyshitballs. I’m so excited for her.
Its in the upper 70s here this week. I haven’t seen Lil Black Sambo but twice. That boy is out hunting.
I want to go buy some onion sets and get them planted this weekend. It’s time.
I’m not participating in the friend drama anymore. I sent a third and final apology email and he once again ignored it. This girl has never been one to keep sticking her hand in the grater. (haha. actually I am that girl but not this time)I’m out.
I’ve spent the morning writing so that I missed my workout window. I’ll go tonight after work. and maybe go out and walk around in the sunshine.
That’s what’s happenin over here.
how’s about you?

I was up 1.4 this week.

I’m not doing well six weeks into this journey. SO I’ve had a stern talk with myself. I’ve made some life changes regarding exercise, quit one gym and joined a different kind of workout space right down from my salon. I’ve been running around and getting good foods into the house today. I’ve thrown out tons of bad stuff and just made myself get into a better headspace.

It’s time to get serious about this life of mine. What better Valentine to give myself?

I’m telling you this because I’m owning it. I’m not going to be able to go on with my rockstar weekend behavior and expect to lose weight. I’m not going to be able to guess at points and portions and be able to lose weight. I’m not going to be able to let my “support” justify my setbacks and poor choices and be able to lose weight.

I’m owning it. If no one works out with me, or can schedule activity at the same time as me, I’m responsible for getting my ass up and moving. Owning it.

Just thought I’d let you know about that.

Oh the Facebook news feed is chock full of love and snuggles and wuvvy dovey messages and pictures. I’m not unable to be joyful for my friends who are loving today. Love Love Love.
But really? I’m just thinking about weigh in and will I see a loss after the weekend and what a beautiful day in the 60’s today and what do I need to do and am I going to make it into Job 2 today and can I get my car washed before it gets the Michigan Cancer…That’s what I’m thinking about.

Went to the theatre to see Sixteen Candles on the big screen last night with PseudoSis 3. We both handed each other burned cd’s for VDay presents! Ha! so alike! It was awesome to see it on the big screen…Jake Ryan. He doesn’t have a whole lot of dialogue in this picture, but man oh man. I think he was my George Clooney before George Clooney.

So. In honor of love, of Jake Ryan, and of this beautiful gorgeous Monday…Here’s a lil sumpin sumpin.

Who else is crazy this week?
The emotions. The anxiety. The change. The urgency. The tears. The eating. The ups and the downs…

what.
the.
fracken frack???

pipes are freezing. sewers are busting. ex husbands are just fucking PRESENT. jobs are slow. friends are backstabbing. friends are moving. boyfriends aren’t truthful. boyfriends aren’t really boyfriends. change is needed. change is scary. and there’s so much powder out in my front yard, all we need is Charlie Sheen and a couple of hookers.

Is it the weather? Is it the time of year? Are you just hanging on? I know several of my people are gearing up for trips, both big and little. Some of us have started new jobs, which is fantastic. Many of us are forging a path into good health and let’s be honest, skinny bodies which, lets be honest we hope will lead to some touching, if not loving at some point. Some of us are embarking on new adventures, getting married, moving into a whole new shiny Whole Foods/Trader Joe’s infested world. Some of us are in sunny parts of the world, blowing out flip flops. So it’s not ALL bad…but jeez louise.

I just need to get a grip. I want some better weather, which we are getting. In fact we are hitting 44 today and steadily rising each day until we hit mid 70’s next week! I am betting people will be running naked in the streets on that day.

It’s Friday, ya’ll. I have plans with friends all weekend. I’m excited about that. I didn’t make it to the gym but twice this week, and am trying not to feel too badly about that. I’m heading into the salon today with great clients all day, yet i have only one 10 minute appointment tomorrow. Sigh.

The instability of the salon job is wearing me to the bone. I’m opening my mind to perhaps look for other avenues of steady income.

there. I said it.

and with that, I bid you peace out. Ima go bang some hair.

Huzzuah for the day! The roads are…driveable. No more snow in the forcast. 50’s and 60’s this weekend and 70 by next Wednesday. I allowed myself to be the epitome of lazy and watch tons of tv and movies. I did get a little wonky with the snacking last night, but will be heading to the gym this afternoon to help combat that. It was -4 this morning. No way no how was I getting up to go sweat in that. Just not doing it. I’ve got a few hours at Job 2, then a few clients this afternoon, then gym then hopefully catching some dinner with Chris and Cindy and getting caught up on the whirlwind of their lives, and helping to make a plan to get their butts moved north.

Wanna know something else I’ve been better/moderatly good at doing lately? Facial cleansing and moisturizing. Dug out all of my Mary Kay regimine that I got from Becky, and have been using it. Pretty good! I’m proud of myself.

My skin had started showing some severe signs of age. Dry. Wrinkled. Crinkled. I’m not talking about laugh lines and those bits that I’ve earned from living hard, I’m talking the stuff in between. Bleargh. So. Barring a full body chemical peel, (which I’m not opposed to) this is working pretty well.

It’s a brand new day. I got some sleep. I feel human. Hope you do too.

i didn’t sleep last night. worried about snow and freezing pipes and my lower back has been so tight that I couldn’t ever rest. the voices were loud talking and gah. finally about 5:30 I got up, checked the water and it was running, checked the cats and they were in and then I finally got some sleep till about 8:30.

my roomie and her boy made breakfast, eggs and bacon and toast and coffee, so good.
I watched:
The Proposal
Glee
Kindergarted Cop (i’m not a policeman i’m a princess…allllright)
Sex and the City eps
Red
90210 eps

I’ve backed 5 point banana nut muffins that were too sweet for my taste. so I won’t be eating them, the roomie will.

I’ve eaten within my points plus allowance for the day with pleanty left over for dinner.

I’m about to take myself a nap.

I keep thinking I should get out and do something. go to the gym. something. I’ve got anxiety over this friend feud that’s still kind of gnawing on me. I’m close to just blessing it and letting it go. I’ve apologized. Sent texts twice to no avail. No response. The division of friends has already begun and I have done what I can do. SO. I will have to just say to myself what I say to any of you on any given day, ” all relationships have an expiration date. some just are earlier than others. this one perhaps has just run it’s final course and that is that. take the laughter and the fun times and put them in your backpack and roll on”

so. maybe what I’ll do is have a xanax. take a nap. and meditate on letting go of that which I can’t control. enjoy the house to myself while I have it that way, covering up with a fluffy blanket and kitty and doze off to the vocal stylings of Andrea Zuckerman and Brandon Walsh.

By the way? Cindy and Chris are the ones leaving. A brand new world awaits them. Go to Elephantsoap for details and wish them some love and luck.

also by the way? next friday it’s going to be 70 degrees here.